Imperfections ...

What are we today. A little less money , a little less happiness , a little less friend , a little less love, a little less sport. Is it . If you reading this and find even a single one true. Think . Once more , is it same .Yes , little less money ... dont compare yourself with anyone else. Compare it with yourself. And when you do that lets move a year back. 

Statuary warning : If your answer is no for all , Great. The article is THE END here. But if you are a little less yourself now, read on .

So little less money . How much more you wanted. Have you thought what is that figure which will make you smile. a million dollars, that is 5 crore indian rupees. What will you do then , think about it . A Big Car (get a loan dear) , a lavish house ( or home you still have) , the hunger goes on. 

Rewind Time : Go back to school days. What you had then. Nothing. Your parents or near-dear ones earned for you and you studied hard. You were happy then. What happened when you got a extra green bill for the Diwali sweets , or candy on hot summer night walking by the home. Then you did not care for these. I dont say you should not think about those things, but there is no reason to be sad if you dont have those. Plan pursposefully. Set goals , achieve them. make a backup plan. You dont become Bill Gates overnight. People tend to start late. Being happy is the the key , not being rich. Be sufficient. Still not contented.  Lets plan. 

Do you have a bank balance. If yes , then skip to happiness section. Invest the money , money makes more. The money in safe is degrading , put in fixed deposit if you have surplous. Now if you dont have, get a paper and pen out. make a future report. How much you earn , and how much you save. You will get a realistic approach of when you will have a bank balance . So plan. Dont be sad. 

A little less happiness .... What happened boss. Think of golden time when you scored a sole goal in a classroom match, of an untiring hundred in book cricket , an undefeated stretch of 15 games in Zero Katta , a win in Ludo , reaching the top in Snake n Ladder from that lucky number 21, and then getting back to 10 from number 99, think of small things. Think of friends . Think of me . We like others are always there. I might fade in light , look upto your brothers and parents. Blood is blood , and happiness is just there. We dont search for it , but just as the dark cloud would shield the sun from us , and make the day rainy, or there can be a bigger eclipse. The day appears night, dont let it stay. It will go off in a second, try not to look directly. Believe in yourself. Its a good thing to believe , to believe that you can, because when you start believing , you start planning , and start to learn and find ways. Happiness comes back in small packets in big way. When you start finding those packets , you radiate more energy than you think of . 

You know what is the best mantra of smiling. Think of friends who always were , but you left them enroute because of any reason. When you will call them , they will smile. Old friends never forget, and with them you re-live the smiles you smiled with them. Find school friends , college friends , or just friends. Think how they helped you  , and you helped them when it needed the most. think of those bunking lectures , those failed exams, those night before exams , those holis and those diwali ... now smile plz. 

Wanna read more ... gimme some time and some comments to carry on ... and when you do that , just smile 

My pillar My luck (touchwood)

when i think of her , few hair flew across her face. She put a hand towards her face and try to wave off them, but then left carelessly to fly around. I wondered it is a style statement or just to tell the world , the carefree attitude she carries, as if unpeturbed by the world around. I dont know pal , what she thinks for the world , but in this world i do think of her. Whenever i am out in big malls, and in sections of her style, i remember her. Her smiles , seeing the price tag and saying, "Areee nahi chaiye, bada mehnga hai" , or running across the mall , and getting a perfect Tee for me. Her enthusiasm and charm in each and every thing she said or do was just so undefeated. Her accent in typical punjabi style where she grew and wanted to go when finished her training. I dont know what made her get to Bangalore , but i had known it a year ago when she was to come to Bangalore that she will be a very good friend. I had shared so many things with her, like with no one else. She knows all the episode of the girl i liked, and consoled me when i was down. She was a face of life which told me to get up, cheer and start anew. She was always there (and still is) for me whenever i needed her. Most of my big plans had her in them , so originated for her , or by her. She was a dream come true friend (touchwood) anyone will cherish to have. Not only being beautiful, she is one with brains. If you happen to know flawless beauty i am talking about, then you must also know she is blessed with great personality, decency , innocence of a child and hear of gold. She will forgive ,if not forget. She tells me to go and fight in this world. She stands by my decision. She is one in a million friends. 

I wont say i am lucky to have a friend like you , but its God's grace for me to have known her. She has supported me well when one of my very close friend went out with her new found love, and when i was alone and sad. 

This girl has diagnosed many problems of mine, and i moved to BTM. I asked her if I should move in , she said yes. And without thinking a second , i went ahead. She has turned all in gold for me , my US visa was stuck , and when she was back from delhi, she said it will be done. It was. Trust me friend , i dare not say your name , many would believe you to be abstract. An angel of sorts with such qualities dont exist, and i will not disturb the illusion of those. But for those who know me , know you as a reality . I am sure you wont change , i believe in you. And as you always have done , keep my belief intact . 

The building blocks

It has been a long time in this world , 25 years done. Long time , but i am sure i learnt most in first five years then in next twenty. Still i dont remember anything from that. Today i write words and sentences in English , but when did i learnt them. My mom tells me , i did my ABCD at age of 2 , and numbers at 3. I started making sentences at 4 and by 5 i was giving oral exams. 

I now know love , and my friends think i know what is friendship, but i dont think i will be anywhere near to what my parents did. Selfless love to make me what i am today. 

I run on streets , drive bikes and have ability to stop. I sense danger , and i interpret love in its pure form , these came when i started tricycling. As Newton did an intgration over a period, so did we. I grew from 5 to 25 , and i saw many things. Broken bones , laughing friends , love , heart-break, friends , not so friends , politics , conspiracy , envy and many shades of life which tell us to learn. We opt most of the times to go with the emotions and not learn from it. we should start doing it . 

Lets start with basic thing :

 Never Expect . all know , but a few do. The greatest pleasure comes when u dont expect , and you get something. Its depression when you expect and dont get it in desired form ,and devastating when you dont get after expecting. 

Dont Lie ::::: Never Lie in frienship ,in relations , for people you care , and otherwise. Most of the close friendships die because of this. If u need to lie , then something is wrong in the friendship. Dont be afraid to tell the truth, things can always work out. Remember: People who matter dont mind , and people who mind dont matter . 

Love : Love all your friends , and if you develop feeling towards a particular friend , be bold and tell it. Most probably the person will refuse, but that is the best way to save a friendship. DONOT , i repeat DONOT forget your other friends if the person agrees to your love. And if the feelings are not reciprocated, love as a friend. 

Sacrifice : the last bite of a meal is shared , give away the last chip from a Lays packet, save last drop of water from the last bottle in a trip, make a cup of tea in middle of night. Trust me , the last chip wont fill your tummy as much as the love would once the other person understands. the thirst will go unquenched if you drink the last drop. 

Radiate : Make the positive vibes, be ready for friends forever . They teased a girl , principal coming.. stand by them. Make your friends believe in you , and never break it .

Above all , be a sport always. Trust me , a lost friend is "The Lost World". I have lost many , and as you read the heading of my blog , its for those Lost Worlds , i lost while gaining all these experineces. 

If you think its a worth , drop a comment down ... 

The Gardener

I really dont remember if i was born in someone five star hotel or with a silver spoon in my mouth. But i do remember that at each and every stage in my life , i have been bestowed upon with love , care and sacrifice showered upon me with really no return. What i say here might not be in context, and as my nature is i will be losing the track mid way for sure. But i now know the track , and i know the theme of this feeling . 

I really dont know how was i born , but i remember i grew up talking, and my parents listening to my teachers for not teaching me how to be quiet. What the hell teachers were supposed to do. Well , i kept on speaking more ,and more , and to a point when i started making friends. Each new friend would bring a new fairytale , and each going off embossing a big EXPERIENCE in my life. You know why when a girlfriend leaves a person m he calls her EX, it means Experience. We grow by it. I too have . I understand love , and i understand friendship. I understand the very basics of a complex life are too very simple. A balanced diet is not green vegetables and following a strict plan , it is when in a diet , you mix the play , the laughter , the smiles and above all happiness. A cup of tea has always been my trademark for making a mark , and so are smiles. I stick to a very basic principle in life , give and forgive. you have to understand the very healty things in life are just for free , but for those who can afford. Not everything that is free can be afforded , or appreciated. 

Free !!!! this term strikes gold. Appreciate something that someone does for you. Always !!! because this world is round , and so is life. I dont believe in God , the gardener. but i do believe what we do in life comes back. If i am bad today , and selfish , and try to do something immoral, it will go recorded in my history. Then 10 years later when i have changed , and i become good, something bad happens. I fail to understand why this is happening , and start cursing the God. Why did i not curse him for punishing me then and there when i made a mistake, when i forget to tell the person Thank You , when i took all the help from a single person , and still not appreciate it. 

Trust me , there can be no bigger sin than not to appreciate the selfless help. And as me , i try my best for others to have a share in it. I have had friends who have been reluctant , very selfish , and ignoring me. What does it makes out. I  come out stronger. i give them more than they can ignore. i creep in the lives and stay there . i rarely make friends ( contrary to basic understanding ,but true), but once i have them , its my responsibility. I try to stretch limits , i fail sometimes. i try to make them smile , i annoy sometimes. i am not the best , i may be the worst , but my friends are best for me. Having said that , i have tried my real best to understand the nature of ppl who take help and not appreciate. Its not deep in history. Its deepak gupta of 05 , deepak gupta05 to be precise. 

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Lalit used to do a lot of consessions for me , so was Harish ...thanks chap to help me out then

Then there was VAS VB , Hrishi , Aarthy did it for me ... u guys rocked 

VAS VB again .. hemant , gaurav , anurag and above all my SPM Basava.. . i was only non working full timepass member then 

IP - Kruti rocked . Maya was good . Anshu stayed back so many times ... 

Airbus - Preetham ,Nihar  -- solved my queries 

MEW --- Mani all the way. A man of stature. This is most selfless man , simple as it is and best in terms of team leader. appreciate u through out Mani .

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The Gardener sees all of us , and as such knows when to strike, and he will strike hard. He gives you a few chances , a few more hours , maybe months or years . decades ... dont be blinded ... you have not fooled him , he will strike. 

Fear the God ... Fear him as much as u can and before anything else happens ... level the scores... 

dont say me tomorrow i did not warn you ... 

The Deserted Water

Have you ever wandered to deep forest with only two of your friends , and the forest wild than than forest that exists in the world. Have you ever got kicked in the butt , and then scolded for letting that happen. Have you met with an accident, and your friends filled the hospital room with laughter, strong enough for you to be discharged un-treated. Have you planned everything on your friend's behalf , and then done childish acts to make them follow the plan. Have you went for a coffee with your friend's friend , and then forcing them to leave their date with the girl they were aiming to date , and make them come and sit you with. Have you ever went out delibrately without telling your friends , and taking air out of the wheels so that your friend leaves office and comes home to spend time with you. Have you ever decided for a 10PM movie at 9 PM with no chance of making it to threater by 10 , and forcing your friend to miss the most ancpitated movie. Have you driven a century Kms just to have a coffee because your friend said the name by mistake. Have you ever danced in the drenching rain with your friends. Have you spent a day with a special one making everything for her. Have you burst crackers in your hand. Have u taken a full cracker under your feet because your friend accidently lit it to protect her. Have you given your jacket in chill winter to already insulated friend with a worry she might get unwell. Have you been the last one to entry the reception party of close friend , and ended up washing dishes and contenting with sweet dish. Have you planned and never followed. Have you fought over for a 50 Paise coin with the shopkeeper for 2 hours. Have you spent your birthday in your friends birthday. Have you had a group hug everyday. Have you loved the way the princly treatment you got from your friends. Have you been humble in a relationship and yet so demanding. Have you made friends feel jealous of a type of friend you are. If answer to each of this question is yes , then you must surely be one of me . 

If not , carry on. 

Have you went on overnight trips with friends , and ended on wrong side of city. Have you planned an hour and spent three each time you had a tea break. Have you smoked the life out of you , and tension out of mind. Have you drank the problems with your life directly draining them with friends. Have you been alone in crowd , yet the centre of attraction. Have you had more than single to say you as his / her best friend ( i have a count of 8 who said so ) .... Have you helped and forgot. Have you helped and fogave . Have you helped and still remember. Have you loved someone and not told her . Has someone not loved you and told you. Have you shared a chocolate fantasy n number of times. Have you dared to look up in sky and point to Hunter constellation.

There are many things we need other than above to maintain a friendship. Opening a few points for all my friends who have asked me ... Ajit , this one goes specially for you ( you always will be as special to me , for you made me believe that i am correct in approach towards my friends )

•  Have you told all your friends they look best today , better than they looked yesterday 
  
• Give and Forgive 
• Lend a helping hand , not only to those who need , but to all your friends.
• Assure your friends you are always there , and back it up when time comes. 
• Never expect them to remember the help you did, its human nature for them to forget, but then a true friend would come back , and realise it later or sooner. 
• A small conversation once a week helps to nourish and deep the roots of friendship
• Accept the compliments as well as complaints alike from friends. With mistakes and critism we learn
• Dont think a friend is more special than other , and never ask any in your friends circle to compare your friends. I have been through this worst phase, (though lasted 10 sec ) but i still shrug on the question. 
• Say truth , and only truth to all your friends , or people you want to be friends with. 
• Lies has no life , broken mirrors hurt more than missing ones. 
• Create a alarm , and weekly calender to update them with what u do daily. 
• Try to loop them , chat to them ,drop mails , call them conference them , ask friends to update , stay in touch 
• TRUST ME .... make people trust you , and never break that. A broken trust is as bad as broken heart only with the difference heart can still be won back. 

And this post is titled deserted water , because i wanted to water the deserts of friends , to make us all a better person in future ... 

Comments appreciated . 

कहीं तो होगी ...

झिलमिलाते हुवे गगन टिमटिमाते हुए तारे , तेज़ चलते हुए इस सुनसान सी सड़क पर , शहर की टिमटिमाती चकाचौंध से दूर , उस आकाश के पास जाते हुए , कड़कती बिजली में मुझे एक तारा दिखा । पता है क्या था वोह , वोह थी एक याद , उस रात की जब हम सोये नही थे । चले जा रहे थे एक साथ आखिरी बार शायद , पर रुके रुके से कदम अपनी रफ्तार से चल रहे थे , और कहीं पर थामे तो मानो वक्त पर अपना व्यकितव्य छोड़ते चले गए । ऐसा गहरा था उस रात का एक एहसास , चाय पीने से उस सितारों भरी रात में जब हम सब रुके। मौत से एक कदम दूर खड़े उस जहाँ को चीख चीख कर, चिल्ला चिल्ला केर बोल रहे थे , की केर ले जो कुछ करना है ,पर हम नही रुकेंगे । हम चलेंगे , और हम चले । ख़ुद भगवान् की आँख जैसे हमारे जज्बे को देख केर नम हो गई होगी। एक तरफ़ थी मेरे प्रिंसी और दूरी तरफ़ । दूसरी तो कोई तरफ़ ही नही थी , हाँ नमिता थी । और नमिता और प्रिंसी के बीच में खड़ा था में , मुझे तो पहचान ही लिया होगा , दीपक और हिमांशु । कोई अन्तर है क्या हम दोनों में। मेरी टांग में था ग़ज़ब का दर्द , और उस सर्द रात में होश उदा देनी वाली हवाएं मदहोश केर रही थी। पर था सहारा मेरा अपना ख़ुद का ( हिमांशु और मेरे में कोई अन्तर नही है :) ) । इन राहो पर खड़े हम यह ही सोच रहे थे की कितना हसीं यह लम्हा है , एक बार उमर में मिले है सब । शायद थी भी वोह मेरे जाने से एक महीने पहेले की घटना जिसमें हम सब पिस गए , उस गेहूं की तरह जो पिछली दो सदी में पकी थी , सिर्फ़ इस दिन के लिए जब हम सब एक रंग हो जाएँ। बीमार प्रिंसी और बिंदास आशु , कहीं पर मस्ती से भरपूर सोमू थी तो कहीं विनम्र नमी । और यहाँ खड़ा था में , पूरी दुनिया पर राज करने के लिए । एक दीपक । कहाँ से लाऊं में वोह सब दोस्त वापस , कहाँ से लाऊं में वोह जुस्तजू , कहाँ से लाऊं में वोह दिन दिसम्बर का , कहाँ से लॉन वोह रात तारो भरी , और कहाँ मिलेंगी इतनी टूट ते तारे , कहीं तो मिलेंगे ही , तलाशा । बहुत तलाशा , इस सुनसान सड़क पर कड़कती बिजली में , और फ़िर मुस्कुरा दिया ... क्यूँ । क्यूँ नही । साथ ही तो चल रहे है मेरे यह सब। यादो में बसते है और आँखों में उतारते है । तुम्हारे लिए सपना , हमारे लिए हकीकत ।

Dil ka khoon

sahara liya tha meine jiska , jo tha saath mere ,
jiske liye mein thi , aur jo tha mere liye .
aaj jab peeth huyo uski taraf, uske mulayam haath panje ban gaye ,
samjha tha zulf suljhayega jo meri kabhi ,
tod di usne zanzeerein wafa ki .
pyaar tha mujhe usse , uski her baat se ,
her ada thi aankho ki tarah uski dilkash ,
teer chala diye dil per mere jitne bhi the ,
jaise bhi the uske tarkash mein.
dil ka khoon laal hota hai ,
wafa ka rang dekha nahi kabhi meine,
per be-wafayi ka bhi laal hota hai ,
beh jaati thi nadiya kabhi uski yaad mein ,
ab yaad nahi usko meri pal bhar bhi.
Waqt kerta shayad wafa , aur sunta meri sada ,
mujhse naraaz tha mera khuda ,
ya ba-khuda meine dil hi laga kkiya kaafir se ,
per agar tu hai hi aye mere khuda is duniya mein ,
to bata de kaafir kaise jeet gaya teri is ibadat per .
mein nahi jaanti ki tu kya kerta hai mere hum nafaz,
per her aayat per meine teri hi padhi hai namaaz,
aur kiye hai sajde tere hi naam ke umar bhar ,
na ja be-hairat ban ker is toote huwe dil से
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सहारा लिया था मैंने जिसका , जो था साथ मेरे ,
जिसके लिए में थी , और जो था मेरे लिए ,
आज जब पीठ हवी उसकी तरफ़ , उसके मुलायम हाथ पंजे बन गए ,
समझा था जुल्फ सुल्जायेगा जो मेरी कभी ,
तोड़ दी उसने जंजीरें वफ़ा की ।
प्यार था मुझे उससे , उसकी हर बात से ,
हर अदा थी आँखों की तरह उसकी दिलकश ,
तीर चला दिए दिल पर मेरे जितने भी थे ,
जैसे भी थे उसके तरकश में ।
दिल का खून लाल होता है ,
वफ़ा का रंग देखा नही कभी मैंने ,
पर बे-वफाई का भी लाल ही होता है ,
बह जाती थी नदिया कभी उसकी याद में ,
अब याद नही उसको मेरी पल भर भी ।
वक्त करता शायद वफ़ा , और सुनता मेरी सदा ,
मुझसे नाराज़ था मेरा खुदा ,
या बा-खुदा मैंने दिल ही लगा लिया काफिर से ,
पर अगर तू है ही ए खुदा इस दुनिया में ,
तो बता दे काफिर कैसे जीत गया तेरी इस इबादत पर ।
में नही जानती की तू क्या करता है मेरे हम-नाफाज़ ,
पर हेर आयत पर मैंने तेरी ही पढ़ी है नमाज़ ,
और किए है सजदे तेरे ही नाम की उमर भर ,
ना जा बे-गैरत बन केर इस टूटे हुए दिल से ।

कहीं तो होगी ....

झिलमिलाते हुवे गगन टिमटिमाते हुए तारे , तेज़ चलते हुए इस सुनसान सी सड़क पर , शहर की टिमटिमाती चकाचौंध से दूर , उस आकाश के पास जाते हुए , कड़कती बिजली में मुझे एक तारा दिखा । पता है क्या था वोह , वोह थी एक याद , उस रात की जब हम सोये नही थे । चले जा रहे थे एक साथ आखिरी बार शायद , पर रुके रुके से कदम अपनी रफ्तार से चल रहे थे , और कहीं पर थामे तो मानो वक्त पर अपना व्यकितव्य छोड़ते चले गए । ऐसा गहरा था उस रात का एक एहसास , चाय पीने से उस सितारों भरी रात में जब हम सब रुके। मौत से एक कदम दूर खड़े उस जहाँ को चीख चीख कर, चिल्ला चिल्ला केर बोल रहे थे , की केर ले जो कुछ करना है ,पर हम नही रुकेंगे । हम चलेंगे , और हम चले । ख़ुद भगवान् की आँख जैसे हमारे जज्बे को देख केर नम हो गई होगी। एक तरफ़ थी मेरे प्रिंसी और दूरी तरफ़ । दूसरी तो कोई तरफ़ ही नही थी , हाँ नमिता थी । और नमिता और प्रिंसी के बीच में खड़ा था में , मुझे तो पहचान ही लिया होगा , दीपक और हिमांशु । कोई अन्तर है क्या हम दोनों में। मेरी टांग में था ग़ज़ब का दर्द , और उस सर्द रात में होश उदा देनी वाली हवाएं मदहोश केर रही थी। पर था सहारा मेरा अपना ख़ुद का ( हिमांशु और मेरे में कोई अन्तर नही है :) ) । इन राहो पर खड़े हम यह ही सोच रहे थे की कितना हसीं यह लम्हा है , एक बार उमर में मिले है सब । शायद थी भी वोह मेरे जाने से एक महीने पहेले की घटना जिसमें हम सब पिस गए , उस गेहूं की तरह जो पिछली दो सदी में पकी थी , सिर्फ़ इस दिन के लिए जब हम सब एक रंग हो जाएँ। बीमार प्रिंसी और बिंदास आशु , कहीं पर मस्ती से भरपूर सोमू थी तो कहीं विनम्र नमी । और यहाँ खड़ा था में , पूरी दुनिया पर राज करने के लिए । एक दीपक । कहाँ से लाऊं में वोह सब दोस्त वापस , कहाँ से लाऊं में वोह जुस्तजू , कहाँ से लाऊं में वोह दिन दिसम्बर का , कहाँ से लॉन वोह रात तारो भरी , और कहाँ मिलेंगी इतनी टूट ते तारे , कहीं तो मिलेंगे ही , तलाशा । बहुत तलाशा , इस सुनसान सड़क पर कड़कती बिजली में , और फ़िर मुस्कुरा दिया ... क्यूँ । क्यूँ नही । साथ ही तो चल रहे है मेरे यह सब। यादो में बसते है और आँखों में उतारते है । तुम्हारे लिए सपना , हमारे लिए हकीकत ।

फिसलती ज़िन्दगी

फिसलती ज़िन्दगी और गुज़रते वक्त के साथ याद आया ,
तेरा साया जिस में गुजार देते थे पूरा दिन ,
दुपट्टा बन जाता था तेरा साया सर का मेरे ,
और जुल्फ देती थी छाया मेरी छाया को ,
हाथ बन जाते थे प्यार के बंधन ,
आज जब तेज़ धुप में अकेले निकला ,
तो बहुत याद आया ।

याद आया

रात को सोते हुवे एक आहात सी सुनाई दी ,
कम्बल को ज़ोर से लपेट कर सोने की कोशिश की ,
पर मुह से एक नाम निकला और नींद खुली,
किसी ने मेंरे मुह पर पानी छिड़क दिया था ,
पर था नही कोई यह शैतानी की मेरी आँख ने ,
भाई आज रात को आँख खुली तो तू बहुत याद आया ।

कहीं पर दोस्त तेरा साथ था ,
सुबह उठ केर तेरा चेहरा दीखता था ,
रात को सोते समय भी साथ तुम ही थे ,
ज़िन्दगी का हेर पल तेरी दोस्ती के लिए था ,
आज जब ख़ुद को तनहा राह पर देखा ,
तो वोह भाई का हाथ बहुत याद आया ।

करता आया हूँ गलतिया उमर भर से ,
एक दोस्ती तेरे से की थी मैंने कभी ,
सबसे बड़ा काम भी वोह ही था और गलती भी ,
आज जब गिरता हुवा भी गलती नही कर सकता ,
तो भाई तेरा सहारा बड़ा याद आया ।

साथ खाना खाया एक उमर भर ,
और भूखा भी रहा तेरे लिए मेरी जान ,
व्रत तक रखे की जिए तू मेरी भी एक ज़िन्दगी ,
रात उठ उठ के खाना भी बनाया ,
आज जब खाना छोड़ देते है एक वक्त का
भाई तेरा व्रत बड़ा याद आया ।

खेल खेलता था तू तड़प कर साथ मेरे ,
और हरा के रख देता था सबको ऐसे ही ,
और में साथ खड़ा मुस्कुरा देता तेरी जीत पर ,
आज उस खेल में जब में बन गया एक मोहरा ,
दोस्त तेरा खेल बहुत याद आया ।

दौडाते थे सड़क पर बाइक पूरी तेज़ी से ,
किसी से कभी नही हारे उस शहर में कभी कहीं ,
और आपस में हार जीत सोची नही कभी ,
आज जब इस तनहा शहर की दौड़ में अकेले दौड़ा ,
भाई तेरी MP -13 bahut yaad aayi .

ज़मीन से आसमा तक और अपने घर से सामने वाले तक ,
एक पूरी दुनिया एक नज़र में नाप लेते थे ,
एक शहर से दूसरे पलक झपकते होते थे ,
कहीं दिल जीते तो कहीं हड्डिया तोडी ,
फ़िर कहीं पर पलकों पर ख्वाब सजा के आए ,
आज वीराने शहर में तेरी नजरो से दिल जीतना चाहा ,
तो भाई तू बहुत याद आया ।

पूरी पूरी रात निकल जाती थी एक प्याले में ,
कभी रात गुज़री है हमने ठंडी सड़को पर भी,
और कहीं एक किस्से पर दिन गुज़रता था ,
कहीं रोये भी है साथ और बताये है दिल के टुकड़े तुझे ,
आज जब दिल टुकड़े टुकड़े हो गया ,
तो भाई तू बहुत याद आया ।
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यह पंक्तिया सिर्फ़ उन दो लोगो के लिए है , जो इनमे छुपी एक उमर तलाश सकते है ।
क्यूंकि आज जब तन्हाई में अपनी कमाई देखता हूँ ,
तू सिर्फ़ दोस्त ही नज़र आते है ।

खौफ्फ़ लगता है ...

खुदा से डरते हो तो थोड़ा और डरो ,
और नही डरते तो दोस्ती की इबादत करो ,
एक उमर बाद मिले कुछ दोस्त जो थे दोस्त से बढ़कर ,
जो रहते थे घर में कम और दिल में ज़्यादा ,
जिनके साथ पी मैंने सुबह की चाय और रात की हस्सी ,
जो न थे मेरे रिश्तेदार , ना मेरे हमदम ,
पर बन गए जो मेरे दिल की धड़कन ...
आज एक उमर गुज़र सी गई है ,
और याद नही जाती उनकी जो थे करीब दिल के ,
किसी के चेहरे की रौनक याद है , किसी की प्यारी हस्सी ,
और कोई थी ही इतनी हसीं की हसीना लगती थी ,
कोई इतनी समझ्धार की सबको लेकर चले साथ ,
तो किसी में बचपना भरा हुवा ,
कहीं तेज़ हवा का झोंका था , तो कोई मस्त मौला था ,
कोई चीनी की तरह घुल गया दोस्ती में ,
और कहीं कोई पिट भी गया प्यार में ,
कुछ तो शादी केर के निकल लिए ,
तो किसी ने तलाश लिया जीवन साथी ,
कहीं पर कोई गाना किसी की याद दिला देता है ,
तो कहीं सिनेमा का साथ है ...
पर जो बात इनमे में है वोह है नही कहीं ,
वोह रात को २ बजे चाय बनाना ,
भाई में बनाता हूँ तुम बैठो ,
और छोड़ आएगा दीपक सुबह ७ बजे ,
वोह अँगरेज़ देख के सलीम फेंकू को याद करना ,
तो कहीं अपने सैफ का स्टाइल ,
वोह न फ स के लंबे सफर ,
नही भूलती है मुझे सुबह ४ बजे की गपशप ,
न भूलती है सुबह ६ बजे खाना हल्का फुल्का खाना ,
और न ही भूलती है वोह डरावनी रात का बाना ,
तो याद है दीपक जी के घर का हवन ,
कहीं कुछ नही भूला है यह लड़का ,
जाने तू या जाने ना देखकर आया था साथ तेरे ,
और आज तक तू साथ है मेरे ,
चाहे जाने तू या जाने ना ,
कहीं ऐसा न हो की में भूल जाऊँ ,
वोह लम्बी लम्बी ई-मेल के सिलसिले ,
वोह पेट्रोल पम्प के किस्से ,
वोह सी सी दी की काफ़ी ,
और टर्मिनल की चाय ,
कहीं भूल न जाऊँ में ,
वोह लम्बी बातें , वोह लंबे सफर ,
वोह उमर से ज़्यादा घेहरी यादें ,
वोह मुझ से ज़्यादा में ....
खौफ्फ़ लगता है की कहीं भूल न जाऊँ में ,
कहीं भूल न जाए तू ...
कहीं हम भूल न जाए एक दूसरे को ...
डर लगता है दोस्त मेरे ....

ढलता दिन और तेरी याद ....

ढलते दिन में शाम होने के साथ किसी की याद आती है ,
डरते हैं नाम लेने से उसका की कहीं नज़र न लगे उससे ,
चाय का सहारा था वोह मेरी जब भी पीने बुलाती थी ,
काम छोड़ के उसके पास पहुंच जाता था जिसकी याद आती है ...


दिन ढलता है आज भी , और आज भी शाम होती है ,
चाय भी बनती है दोस्त भी मिलते है ,
पर वोह हसी , वोह काम में फसी ,
वोह मीठी सी मुस्कराहट लिए सामने बैठी एक परी ,

अब नही मिलती चाय के साथ शाम के बाद ...

दिन ढल रहा है , और हो रहा है वक्त पीने का ,
मचल रहा है दिल फ़िर उससे मिलने को ,
फ़िर से उमर रही है दिल में तरंगे उसके ख्याल से ,
जी उठा हूँ फ़िर में तेरे एहसास aसे ,
पूछते है मुस्कुरा के मेरे दोस्त यह अक्सर ,
क्यूँ मुस्कुरा जाता है प्याली को देखकर ,

एक प्याले चाय में जो है तेरी तस्वीर छुपी ,
पर शायद नही समझेंगे तेरे अक्स को जिसमे मेरी जान है बसी ....

शाम ढल रही है और हो रहा hai वक्त ,
अब न जाने तुझे में याद भी हूँ की नही ,
अभी भी वोह ५:२२ से ५:५३५ से बीच का घंटा याद है ,
और ६ बजे टर्मिनल पर चाय का कौपौन लेकर रखना ,
वोह तेरी दही पूरी भी याद है और चाय के दो तीन दौरे भी ...
और याद है मुझे वोह तेरा चाँद लम्हों पहेले आ जाना ,
फ़िर जल्दी में चाय पी केर बस के लिए जाना ....

लंबा वक्त हो गया शायद , पर किसी ने कुछ बताया नही ,
उमर गुज़र गई पर लगता है रूह वहीँ जम गई ,
उस्सी शाम की चाय ने केर दिया बेबस आज हमने इतना ,
की चाय का प्याला होठो तक आता तो है ,
पुराने लम्हे याद दिलाता तो है , पर नही होता नशा चाय में ,
नही होता नशा अब चाय में चाय का ,
यादो ने बेचारी चाय का वोह हक भी चीन लिया ...

याद तो हेर प्याले में हम आयेंगे ही ,
रूह छोड़ के आए है हम उन्ही वीरानो में अपनी ,
भटकी है जहाँ चाय की तलाश में दोस्त मेरी ,
मिलती है आज भी शानदार चाय उसको वहीँ पर ,
और एहसास रहता होगा कहीं पर ,
पलट के देखना ए दोस्त कभी ,
हम भी उस्सी प्याले में मुस्कुराते मिलेंगे .....

Accept me as I am

Accept me as I am-
I have no guarantee.
A claim to perfection I have not.
Perfect I cannot be.
I, like you.....am human.
Prone to make mistakes.
Failure is not a character flaw,
Just a part of the human makeup.
I live, I laugh and I also learn.
My knowledge is incomplete.
I am searching all the time,
in waking hours as well as sleep.
I have a long road to travel,
as well as you do.
We learn our lessons on the way.
Wisdom we shall acrue.
Accept me as I am
Because I am ....me.
And You are you.
No one like me in the world.
That is my only guarantee.

God Bless ....

PS: For those who still have not accepted me ... accept me as i am , else i will change for u ...  ... do comment if u like this crap above

Mornin i opened my eyes ...

this morning when i openned my eyes
..i could feel ur love around..
this morning when i looked up to the sky
.. i could see u in the clouds..
this morning when the breeze touched my cheeks
..i could feel ur kiss..
this morning when the wind embraced me
.. i could feel ur bliss..
this morning when my eyes were wet
.. i could feel the pain u had..
this morning when i smiled
..i could feel u being so happy n mad..
this morning when i missed you
.. i could feel that you care..
this morning when i wanted to luv u
...i wish you could be here..

(this is written by Ashu )

The Lonely Tea

Have you ever thought that preparing a cup of Tea could be painful. Worse. First time in my life , i was looking at the boiling vessel , and thinking it was me single who had to gulp it down the throat. I still miss the time when even at 1 AM i used to prepare a cup of hot boiling tea and still have friends to share. There is no Ajit to stop me drinking 10 cups of tea / day , and still go on competition for another cup  of tea. There is no more Himanshu to say No to tea, and then ask for a share in two cups though made.

lemme come back , tea is nearly going to boil. 

Back. 

The sugar i have again forgotton to add. And then i will again be lazy to get one. I still remember most of the times when tea was prepared, it was Ajit to serve, and me will spill it. The kitchen here is more sophesticated , and i have to fight to make a cup of tea. But i dont like this, i like my kitchen in 1085 more. i like to drink the cup of T , but not like this. 

Tea is one thing which i associate to all of my bangalore friends, and come down with it all the memories of time. Lets remember a few of them , from the night tea , to those early morning sips. And those tea on tea on that Coorg morning. When the Tea flowed liked river Ganges .Tea is also associated to evening sips with Namita , which i remember daily @ 5 PM , and sorry girl if u sneeze at that time. 

This is most uncharacterstic post , i dont have an idea what i have penned down , the tea is over and so is my urge to write on. The Tea was wonderful as always , esp with all the memories that single cup carries with it