Life with a few broken Bones

Aha … finally something white on my body , and seems so integral part of it. Other then the time my friend injected a serum in my left hand , and glucose bottle the pain was nearly absent. I saw him like a small child given a wood piece and he wonders what is that doing in his hands. The mutual understanding of a doctor and patient amazes me sometimes. He smiled back , stands up and prepares another syringe. “what that, doc” , nothing much , tetanus. And I smiled back ,I just had one 2 months back. “does not matter”, this one is harmless.

So this is third time I am seeing you Mr. Gupta, and he injects it. Right arm defeated. Now the turn of left hand. He twisted the hand like moulding floor to shape, and asks so innocently, “does it pain ??”. “ not before u started playing with it , and laughing he takes out a small hammer . God , I just said in joke and he is going to break bones, little late I realized he is going to mend a few broken ones. A hairline fracture, not a cause of worry. It should be fine in a week or two. The friendly doctor carefully kept my hand on the table and started asking a few questions.

“ How long have you been driving Mr. Gupta.?” I will complete two years and 15k Kms on bike this May , I replied.
“So how many times have u met with accident”. I was mum. And then I replied , “ this is because my times are bad, I didn’t took the bike to temple , so it seems the God is taking out revenge on me”. He applied crape bandage and said, “so take it to temple soon Mr Gupta, and please take care of left hand”.

I was juggling with my fingers , and he said yes, hairline fractures are most delicate subjects. Just like a stick breaks up at weakest point or at a crack, so is true for bones. But I am going to drive back.The doc did not appreciate the idea but considering my house was barely a couple of Kms from the place , he reluctantly agreed. And I was in home. On my bike. Doctor has said not to use it but I need something to prepare. I went to food world and got a packet of Maggi. Was really exhausted to prepare something new. So what now. Back to home , and lots of utensils. I made maggi in pressure cooker , and it was first time when I tried to lift it , it pained. My Left hand had already been troubling me for long , so I decided my right hand decides who is the boss. After dialing a few numbers trying to let them feel I am concerned and fine , I had the medicines, and I don’t know when I slept.

I woke up at 430 in the morning , trying to breathe. The previous two days exhaustion has taken its toll and this was expected. I rushed to find that serflow , and was probably packed in my baggage packed untouched since Tuesday morning. Finally I had the medicine and was feeling better. The only curse was where I had put myself into ,and whats happening to me. Its difficult to get back to sleep at 430 in morning , and office is also not possibility. So lets see some TV at 430 AM. Its Thursday now , and did I miss something. To stay single one starts thinking more than desired. Entire mathematics and geography comes down. The serflow was also taking its toll. And in some 15 min , I was out on chair. Alarm rang at 9 am . after a long time I was broken up by the alarm. Severe back pain , left hand gone , excessive coughing. God , I am just 25 and seems like I am 65 or what. Went to terrace , and the climate was awesome. Rushed back and stuffed my mouth with a few breads and milk. Had medicine and went down to bike. Should I , should I not ??

I will not put any pressure on right hand, I can drive it. And I drove. It pains a bit but manageable.

Back to home in evening , and utensils to wash , and house disheveled. So I started to put the things in right place. All things at correct place. But for first time, my legs also pained. A soft maon left my mouth and I sat back to cushion. I called Fateh and asked that I need a maid for house as its becoming impossible with a nearly broken arm , paining legs and allergic to dust. He replied three days later and still I am here. The condtion of brochos is still tailing me , causing me not to speak loudly over phone line and breathing to life in middle of night. The whole life living on onself has great advantages. One may cough to death in dark of night and you wont disturb a sleeping beast nearby. There are other advantages for being devoid of time, one tends to be selfish , as all one does is for himself. I cook for myself , and praise it for me . I sin and punish myself. I call friends over , have fun and kick them once it is all done.

There is a new breath in life , I make new friends on daily basis. With times like lines of hands, they keep on changing. Old friends find new ones ,and fading eyes get new ones. There is a new rule I have started to live by … Live life KingSize … and there is one thing .. “tujh ko bhi jab apni kasamein , apne vaade yaad nahi , hum teri yaadon ko apni palko per rakh ke bhool gaye “ ..

There are times when we are hurt , and its true both emotionally and physically. First cut draws blood, its sensitive to fiddle till it heals properly, but in case one injures same spot again. Injury opens and but blood finds constricted way out , over the period the pain subsides and what remains are a collection of few dead emotions , not hurt or dwindled by knife piercing the bones , and it is that stage I find myself today. A heartless , selfish and all let to myself. What a piece of white can make a difference , so those who are full white , I can understand. It runs in your veins now , so I forgive each of you as I forgive myself …

Even God has limited resources

How many times have I seen people doing inhuman acts. People can go to limits fighting for that green note with Father of Nation on it, I think if Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi has a part of his spirit in that currency carrying his watermark, would be hurt to hilt. I am at so many occasions left to wonder why has God made such a diversified society that is marred by so many bad people , and equal number of goodies. I am left with one thinking that when God , as greatest engineer one would consider could not do well without having a proper plan. What could be his option , say he has 100 grms honesty , trust ,friendliness and so on .He cant put all in one , so what he does is divide the properties among different sections of people. He definitely does not own a watch or calendar as we humans do , and must be looking at stars to define what all to put when. Just like if I want to make a sweet dish on Monday , and meal on Tuesday I will select the ingrediants like those. So we have decoeded how can people in Gemini have astonishing similarility , and how does one match better life partner. Is this not a game of heart, even those are limited. For we have been marred by personal opinion , and I still don’t feel like dark being the back of color. Sometimes God tries to put in more color to a person , stroke an extra brush and end up spoiling the painting, but he definitely makes up. He goes round and may bless the person with better brain or nice heart or nothing. But there is nothing called as History. What all a person has when he leaves the God’s workshop is a Future , and I really don’t know if God has pre-defined that even. But to expect a God defining future is still not digestable idea for there are crores of people. He must have secretaries to do the job , and sometimes they must be in really bad mood ( moyb some family issue , because what I feel is Earth is model for prototype God has in his home , and he himself must not be devoid of emotions as we are ) . And when in bad mood , he creates a life line which is also not good to taste. And may not be liked by many. A person with beautiful characterstic may meet this moody god one day and spoil not only his but those surrounding him. This must be real bad. Or there is a different criteria for this . His total balance of facial beauty and heart adds up to 100 , I seriously feel this should not be the case. For heart I don’t know ,but I don’t score well with the former parameter. But I have seen a few with century in facial lookups and ending up as pathetic humans, selfish and self centered.

Whatever be the case, God is trying to do his best to keep us humans occupied trying to solve the mystry and I must congratulate him one day that what all he has done been an excellent job. Only thing is he endure much more pain than one can stand , next time when he makes me , I request him to put a little less colour on me , make me a bit more selfish and give me strength to forgive those who have hurt me.

Life at High speed ...

There is a famous saying "if there is nothing going your way,nothing qill". Same goes here. was allocated to project in mys , so thinking would be spending a month there i went in that dream land, leaving all my expensive city life behind. but how. the bus ride takes a long time, so try biking. i had done it before. wheeewww .. i flew the distance and completed the corridor in 1 hour 30 min , distance of approx 120 kms. and thrilled was me. with all my clothes and lappy on my back , this was cool. i rested for a day only to be told next day my not so wish was granted and i can move back to bangalore. the constant travelling had already made me tired and sick and fever ran a few degrees above century. so decided to make a move next day. Tuesday morning 920 am i left for blore. First thing in my mind was break my personal best record. but i had skipped my breakfast, and a little sick i was tired. 60km down the track i got a call from amrit, and stopped on dhaba. kept the heavy bag and had a tea. the buckle of bag broke while i kept it. Bad Times.i tied it to my waist and moved on .., this time i forgot the record and at senile pace of 90-100 i drove smoothly. i covered the corridor in 1 hour and 45 minutes , and moved in express highway.
now its been 100 Kms , and the smooth road lured me to go for it. seeeeeeeewwwwwww , i drove at max my bike can offer , and there was a big rock in middle of the road , and at speed of 110kmph , met me .. woow , had someone recorded it... zig zag all the road till i stop by force of friction. my left hand pained like hell. my back was still fine , but lappy i am not sure. i dont even know what happened in that fraction of second. all that remains in my mind is the stumbling rock. i got my bike up and it was punctured. i was down. extreme pain, puntured bike and no one to ask for help. i wished someone called me up, and could come down. I think i needed a friend. There is so much adversity teaches us. i had a diclowin plus in my bag and gulped it down without water or anything, and waited for few minutes. A MH registration number car stopped and saw me. the person offered me water , thank god , i got back in my elements. he saw my bike and informed that Indian Oil petrol pump is some 500 meters away. You dont know what a ray of hope can do wonders. i thanked the gentleman , and offered him my V-card for a treat due to him. DiClowin had done its trick , the pain has subsided. i dragged bike to petrol bunk to know the punture man is on leave. then io road on back of seat for another km or two , i dont remember and got tube replaced. Exhausted i drove @ 30 back to my place.
i dont know when i crashed in , but woke up at 11 in night, extreme pain in left hand...
next day was again pain , and treatment done.. a hairline fracture which wont take more than 15 days to heal.
what a tuesday that was ..... though doc has strictly asked me not to bike , i do take in depths of night that Diclowin plus and bike to office ...

me and my personal space

Is this world to be conquered all alone or we have to carry someone on our back. Is it reaching personal milestone or letting all go together. For so long I have heard that “Its lonely at the top”, does one refers that personal bonding , friendships and other such stuff take a backseat once one reaches the top. I don’t think so. There was a time when I was surrounded by friends all around me , and never think anything other than shear fun. Small pranks those made day for me, and getting on one poor guy. Sometimes I was also on receiving end , and the life went on smoothly as hot knife on slice of butter. There was a crack on beautiful dress she wore today and on the dressing sense of person in next cube. The project smiles were carried on to food courts and from there to home. The entire day was so full that one need not think of personal space or need of one. But then why today has this concept of personal space intruded the boundaries of my not so developed brain. This is a tedious question and one might wonder how to get the things right. There is a saying “When nothing is going your way , nothing way” , and nothing is. Maybe I will cherish this posts with my lost friends once they are back , and laugh our stomachs out. But as of now , I know one thing for sure, “IF u are going through hell, go on”. For road to quality has no end , and each crossed milestone brings me closer to utmost target or goal of perfect salvation.

Our words are counted , so are minutes of life. One may spend them cherishing , enjoying and having fun all around the place ,but sometimes few words should be saved for critical situation. Words like arrows can be penetrative , and should be carefully used. The wound by an arrow head can heal , but words might not. One small vocabulary error can seal the fate of a decade old friendship.

There is one thing which now I think most in times when I talk to myself, that we should appreciate the ones who appreciate us. God has not made many people to be with us, and if some people have a liking for us, we should not negate them. God knows when we fall in love with them, and sincerely want them back. Few people create a void in life and that void can never be fulfilled by a thousands who may fill in. even if one is surrounded by a hundred friends , go and make a personal note. Note the people falling in love with your smile, smile back. Appreciate them , encourage them love them. True friends are really difficult to find , just like diamonds. Diamond is a stone, but when found is like just like another. It has to be polished and finished to desire the heart, only think unlike friends. Friends are found as gem, cherished as memories and lived as life. If you found one in me, and u think u really let me go. Surely for once you may be right, but there is no way I wont be back. But this time I don’t want to come back to go just like that. This time I want to come and stay like a blueprint of friendship.

A personal space gives u a lot of more time to think what is good and what is right. A day full when one does not attend a phone call or talk to anyone , will help one realize the correct steps and mistakes he is making. Most of the times those small incidents which otherwise wont find a mention echo in the minds. A harmless humour can turn demon and turn the friendship in tars ...

There was one of my friends who once told me to have a personal space , go to park for a walk , take mp3 songs , walk a distance, may be for an hour and give myself sometime. I tried once, but that was so boring. How can one survive alone , how can one do fine with a heart break. Have one injured oneself physically , be in hospital for a long time or loaded under pressure. Still have I held my nerves to hold on to call. Between breaking voice and demolished morale stood a friend to fight for the world. Why should one care not about one who cares for you the most. This is a typical human nature and I still have no clue why it happens that way. Sometimes we stumble over a rock , fall down and stand up. Sometimes the injury would refrain us from standing for a brief period, the injury takes time to nurse , but a person will always stand more strongly after a tragedy or accident is what I may not agree with. Physically after a span one might be weaker, but when the relations break it hurts, when heart breaks it pains , but when a friend goes, is suicidal. I really don’t care how many girls come in my life and I talk to daily. The number is huge , many are not more than a chat friend. Some drop in for a call , and few will appreciate my writing, others my poems and I will appreciate each of them as the most beautiful girl to walk on the earth but do I really mean it. There are a couple of girls who took it too seriously and few took it too lightly. But that’s life that happens when one is planning other things. There was a name on Gtalk I used to start my say with , now that rests in peace , a name to prop up at 9 Am morning desk , lyf happened and its gone. Then there was a regular call like a coffee break at 10:15Am suddenly gone missing. Even the friends call at 1230 to reach food court is missing. There are no longer team meetings blocking my calendar , and the fate seemed to be giving back my dues. The times are not trying to pass , and I am not letting it pass through.

Is there a way that some feelings miss a person spanning a year and a half. If someone is staring at me, I get to know and so does other half of city I reside in. then my conscious fails to admit that the person I like does not know it. There possibly could be two reasons as learnt from Atom, either she wants me to be close friends always or use me before we both by mutual consent say “It Quits” , and she can come out of it as easy as” Mission Accompalished “ , and possibly I will take certain time to recover or maybe not. But she will like other care not. Her number will change like her character , like first snow she smirks and smiles. But one ray of sunshine will melt it away. I don’t know how does adversity brings out best in person, may be the person manages to make best of the resources available , but definitely prosperity has no parallel. There is a learning in each time good and bad. Good times are like sugar candy , one may learn and cherish. Bad times are board exams, god Forbid , if one does not score good, he is doomed for life. Each step there are thousands of mistakes ready to happen

And one has to choose one which punishes you the least and the wounds of which will be healed soon. The times have changed and so has me , else these times wont forgive me.

The personal space in me is my space , which has like a crystal glass helped me realize the fact that friends is an illusioned terms used in good times for colleagues, and should not be carried as permanent baggage. The things I am learning from one of my friends , I don’t carry excess baggage, and sooner or later I will drop the same , THE EXCESS BAGGAGE. Thanks a lot for my personal space for helping me realize the same

Holi and colors of it ....

Whats in Holi ... a blend of colors , a mouthful of cold drink , a fistful of gulaal or a pleasant meal. Its a feeling , something not many can understand.
I wanted to write much more , hope my health will permit me to complete it soon

Love to Stay Single

There was never a time when i sat alone for lunch or dinner. rather would have stayed hungry , skip a meal than to sit alone and have meal. Then I came back to Bangalore , so happy to have re-united with Sameer and Fateh. Lunch time became as pleasing as it ever was. When Sameer left Blore for good, and Fateh following his trace soon. I was left all alone in Bangalore. Single house , single occupant , and thinking what a tuff life this is gonna be. so many of friends came, stayed and went off. And i sat the first day when i came back from mysore to bangalore to see Fateh missing. The walls of the house seem to say so much. i had to look out sometimes to see if he is talking on phone outside. Every evening we used to make coffee and sit on the terrace talking , listening to songs and just having cool time pass. But this was also short lived , a fortnight. Following the same , he also went , and what remained was phoenix. Fighting lonliness in home , to work pressure in office to relocation in mysore. nothing seem to go the way expected. and still i was determined to make a mark. I still have a close friend in bangalore , for whom i can defy death , eat pain and drive millions of miles effortlessly.
And wednesday the mitra calls me , and scolds me badly. already fighting the lonliness , this flickering light was hit hard. His self esteem molested , and self devastated. The friend was under work pressure and in trouble, which i cudnt see. And i was in deepest of all possible troubles, with short breath and nothing working around me , friend failed to notice.
I was so devastated that i decided not to take up any calls. Also the project required such intense understanding that a small distraction would have been fatal ,a nd there was a number on my mobile , for which my mobile was on. and if the person said to me , i shudnt talk , i will give anything friend wants. And i gave it to her.
I like my friend so much that the plain sheet of paper would find me short of words. Each time i genuinely praise the beauty , the friend thinks am trying to pull leg , though i personally believe my friend is THE MOST BEAUTIFUL person i ever met. And now when i am living alone , working full day to prepare meals , do household work to washing clothes , i have discovered a new Deepak. A new person who is more confident to face the life , take up the challenged and tell the world that it is correct wen it says to me that i am the best.
Just one fine day i will wake up from one side of bed cauz the other side of midnight would be the song of my life. Just wait for that day , to say to life ...
Bring On the Next challenge ....
to the person who is my only friend in blore ... and i dont need to mention the name mitra .. do i ??

Cricket And Hockey ....

Through out the history we have had champions , few nations have dominated a particular field of sports like none other can. Brazil does it to Soccer , West Indies for a decade in 80's fir Cricket , Australia doing it now , Russia did in Chess and so on .
India also did it , and it did it in fashion , dominating HOCKEY for nearly a century, more than five generations have seen Indian prosper and dictate terms and techniques. all nations have tried hard to dismantle the mattle of Indian hockey. When it did not work out , came in concept of synthetic grounds. Also the generation of aggressive hockey was going down. The then less popular sport Cricket saw Indians winning World Cup in 83 and coupled with mini WC 85 Saw Cricket demanding attention. This entire stuff came in packaged with indiviual performance and likes of Kapil Dev and Gavaskar. The icons in young guns of India bagan to popularize the game. The domestic events like ranji , deodhar and other championship popularised cricket to hilt. Hockey was a premium sports , and lasted only couple of hours , cricket came packaged for a day's fun.
But the interest in hockey was lost when the standard of game was down. The day when india got down from numbero uno position in Hockey was assumed to be short termed , but it has been 25 years India won a medal in hockey , and more than decade when india won WC in hockey.If one cant associate PRIDE in the game , interst lose.
Indian hockey was revived with Premier hockey league , but players who performed there never made it to top. The heads in hockey can talk all junk , but not about game.
This time hockey will be played , India wont be there in Olympics , its so sad .
but we cant blame cricket for hockey disaster.

you and me

There was a time when we played together,
When we could pick each others call ,
When there was nothing between us ,
When we laughed, smiled and giggled together ,
When all knew we were just the one ,
When message for me was conveyed through you ,
When all school college we will be together ,
When others stare at us as couple would ….

There was a time when the lunch was together,
And the classes bunked at same times ,
When other would walk out when I was punished,
When the canteen had same account number ,
When our first account had consecutive numbers ,
And offcourse , the same passwords ,
When our gmail yahoo and others were mirror images….

When we would plan for an event together,
And work as a unit to take on eleven ,
For the play was not fair ever we played ,
And played it all for win we had to ,
Then move thousands of kms in each other’s embrace,
To a common destination where will see only you ,
Where the world wont come with grace and religion ,
And die in each others embrace as we lived in heaven ….

Here we are four years down the lane ,
I am still the same and u drive the left lane,
The call be made but the time difference is in days now ,
World knows we are one though we are ages apart ,
And messages are absent in absence of common friends,
The mails ids are same and passwords different ,
Account numbers still consecutive , but I use bank and u net ,
For the distance from each other is a million kms now ,
And we still know we are with each other ,
Still we know we care for each other ,
For talks have been reduced and its now the turn
The turn of heart to speak to other …
And this is just to tell you ,
I am still here , still the same , still talk to u ….

And come back to miss me

(written by me not for any one of my personal friends but the general trend of the friends i went through )

The bus ride

I still remember the first day i took her to school,
her little fingers held mine so strong ,
she would hide beneath me before befriending the teacher ,
and i walk off the school with her with her new preacher.
waited till the bell rang till the eight time it did ,
and we walked back to home smiling and giggling ...
the far off school was too far and i will drop her daily ,
pick her and it will not be just so easy ,
for few years went like that motion morning night ,
and her fingers still held me tight like first day we went ....
was it a burden i thought often , and one day in the vent ,
she cried , look at the fire that rises so high ,
and i was awake that she is growing too fast ,
one day she will walk to a house nearby soon,
and my heart skipped a beat too ,
each day i took her to the bus ride ,
and thank god , there is still a day to go...

now she has grown and we walk a few distances,
just a school which is blocks away ,
for i am an ear to all stupid complaints and instances,
and teasing of all fellow friends and dance sway ,
for each passing bus reminds me of that first day ,
when i waited for her entire may ,,,,
the life has descended on me now ,
and my age seems to be august now ,
she goes to college a state away ...

she went away a bit too soon ,
like with night goes the moon ,
and one day i just asked her ...
did u remember the time we travelled together ,
and she smile , with a tear left her eye ,
yes dad ,,, i cherish the time ....

for all of us who have been troubled all our parents all our life , its time to tell them , yes , we remember that bus ride , that first soft toy , that first choclate . more important that we remember all that u have done .... and that we owe to u , more than we owe it to ourselves

College Canteen

that majority of time we spent in college,
that 14" TV for all the cricket matches Sachin played on ,
For all the times we cracked jokes on each other,
and last morning tea that lasted till first lecture ,
miss the same old canteen where whistle over new girl...

the cricket matches saw a new stadium in place,
never to college new to canteen , and sachin on bat ,
score few dozen runs and whistels so hard ,
tense more than sachin himself when nearing century ....
and those samosa chai cofi flowing till pockets empty .

those nicks and snicks , and caught and dropped ,
love the comments and commentary of a few ,
miss the friends who would each time fall to depth so low,
and a slap over the head was to follow ,
and the bhangra on Indians scoring a century...

The holi plans , and diwali crackers plant ,
and cricket also played in the luncheon so often ,
notes exchanged and syllabi discussed ,
now our juniors carrry the flame forward ...
and left me to ponder ,
was there a canteen in my college ,
or a full college in that small canteen ...

Away From Home ??

Working at a MNC away from home ,
this last year when i will be here ...
for next time i will be in my hometown ...
with my mom dad and sis ....
finally i will go to a company near my home ...
went to home on a diwali vacation ...
told your parents you will be back soon ...
forgot the time when mummy was late at work ...
and you stare at the watch ....
now they do ,not the watch but calender ...
for this project be over and i will go home ...
for two months more , an onsite i got ...
will earn a million pound and give dad a luxury car,
But time is running round and getting very far ...
joined this company for a year or so ...
now the home is no no ...
have been to home this time have you ...
and cried lonely in deep nights before you left ...
think the rivers the mom and dad cry ....
for you would be there admist all trouble as life's dry ...
remember the shoes dad bought would last 2 years ...
the simple presence of his kill all the fears ...
have been to bus holding his fingers ...
he is waiting for you to hold it back ....
remember you promised love to sister .....
she is missing you , come back ...
few more years and she will go to new home ...
while you take 1 month break ....
are you still going back this year ....
think of all smiles , all pains all support family had ...
they need you more than this damn multinational can ...
life slips like sand in closed fists ...
dont plan for this year ...
dont stop for stamping ...
this year just dont be away from home ....
this year make your house back to a home ....
back to home , not away from home

Easy Last Day at Pune

3rd Jan 2007 was my last day in Pune, for heaven's sake. this was one of the places i dared to stay , to live , to work. But this experience in pune was not to be a small one. The two months in Pune saw me changing. Morning bus at 8 AM will be in my memory for a long time , that actually cured my habit of"Late to bed , late to rise, makes Deepak defaulter in Dart ". This habit which i am proudly referring to as one which improved my way and look of getting up in the morning was a real curse and i will never never do it again.
My stay in Pune was pleasurable only to cause of two people , one Deepak Jain and other Vaibhav Pruthi. DJ was with me since training and we had a gala time in home. getting at 6 in morning together , to make the dinner. laughing over small things, and just enjoying. There are a thousand of incidences which are worth blogging and should come here , but in public interst are not blogged.

Then come this Pruthi,have already blogged my first wonderful Sunday in Pune. There were a lot of others. One thing i will not refrain from mentioning is Pruthi giving me his bike for a period exceeding 14 days, and when i needed it the most , he agreed me to keep it for 2 more days. That help from Pruthi helped me clear my Process exam atleast , though i flunked in J2E 201 once more.

Lets be back to where i was , last day at Pune , and by the most , most happy moment. I thought i would be going back alone , but i was again wronged. Deepak Jain missed his bus for me, (atleast what he tells me ) , then again for last one tea.
As the time went by , so was time for me to leave. And here i left Pune , with a couple of sweet memories, Footli and DJ ...
some friends neva change.

Fading Letter

Let me start it with famous saying " Qassid ke aate aate Khat ek aur likh rakhna , mein jaanta hoon woh jo likhenge jawaab mein " , reminds me of ancient times when a messenger used to take the messages written from one person to other. The messages written on piece of paper, leaves and even cloth. the times changed and then around 1700's , postoffice came into existence. It was then i , the letter , came into existence. It was like a re-birth. People started writing to each other , to relatives far off and to friends near to heart. By mid 1900's , i became the most important part of communications. I was in seventh heaven , with so many people waiting for me to come , for so many songs dedicated to me. There were so many types of me written , one from father to daughter, from lover to other , so on .. but one which made me cry , and had faced rainy days were those written by kins of army personnel. So many times they were so full of emotions that i lost myself. I was no longer a piece of paper , i was a feeling , a memory , a moment to cherished and kept. To be read again and again , for many times, to be hidden under bed , to be put on a notice board , to be shown to entire town .. that was me. People used to wait for me , and I was a V.I.P. , i used to love friends snatching the letters and running the entire city , though it hurt sometimes.
I remember of some instances when an innocent boy fearing his father ate me away on receiving a letter from her to be wife. But then came the computers, they renamed letter to mail. Post offices are being replaced by MailBox , and letters by emails. They say they dont need me anymore , they cant send the same message to hundred other friends they would have loved to. They claim not to have used a pen for a century now , and dont know where post office is. They dont understand my charisma , my charm. they dont understand the fragnance i carry , the smiles i bring to friend's face that your e-mails dont , the emotions i convey. The spell checks u have , but its fun to read mis-spelled words. you might need to send same message to hundred , but atleast send it through me to one who is more than what a hundred means to you.
For just take out your fav pens , dust it off , sheet of paper and write a letter to your near and dear ones , fragnance it and put it in post box. Ah!! you dont know where it is , there is an alternative. they say courier it . Do it once , for me . Please let me cherish my youth once more.
Once more , let me see a beam of smile on your parents face one more time , once more let a drooping cup of tea be placed on my body , to be lifted to leave cup marks on it , once more let me hear a discussion over a parrty , once more let me be kept secretly in pages of books ,before i die in pages of history ..
Just once more please ......

parvati - Pune

This Weekend we had a bike , and with all things going wrong , whats the best place to be. Temple. Heard a lot about this place Parvati , somewhere in mid Pune. At 11 in the morning, me and Arun went out to a voyage with unknown routes and paths less travlled to this place. Bangalore has made me learn a few traffic rules, other than breaking speed barrier. With me on wheels , one can be sure of two things, a maniac on roads , and lets Rock. with speeds touching 110 KMpH on Pune roads ( think Arun will testifiy as most people think am a Liar .. big time). We reached the place quite unconfortably asking for directions at each junction. well enough. Lets start with this magestic place, in the heart of city. Parvati is the one of the most scenic locations in Pune. It is situated at a height of 2100 feet above sea level. The temples on Parvati hill are the oldest heritage structures in Pune and reminiscent of the Peshwa dynasty. It offers an aerial view of Pune city .
The Picture above is a sculpture in the Mueseum at Parvati. One of the most unkempt museum i ever saw. The pic above is of Lord Vishnu seated on his garuda.
The pic below is of Lord Ganesha from Mueseum. The sculpture is good , but not that best to be kept in un-maintained mueseum.


The pictures here are true reflection of what a cool place it is. At highest point in Pune, Lord Shiva sits here with all the glory, blessing all the city with his grace. Below is the main temple at "Parvati" . Nandi Bull is one who is at the doorsteps , waiting for all the orders of Lord , in sun rain and everything.

This is the the pic of what is inside the temple of Lord Shiva @ Parvati where pic taking is strictly prohibited, but if the Lord wants it who are we mortals to stop it.

Below is the picture of Lord Vitthal. The temple was closed and no one sitting there , so we had a lill prayer and took the pic without any problem .
Below is the Lion at the enterance to Shive temple protecting the gateway to lord Shiva

Below is pic of Lord Ganesha , in full marble and blessing all who come to him.
The Sunday outing in Pune at Parvati was a pleasing experience. The travelling through middle of city at over 70 consistently and asking the routes , comments and fun and above all . Bike which would shut down every now and down. With Arun at back sporting my biking ways and not cribbing about fast speed ( in fact supporting me ) , it was really a nice experience.

Dats me ... See the background .. entire City ... huh ...

Getting there: Parvati is situated in the centre of the Pune. It is around 4 Kms from Deccan and 1 km from Swargate.

and yess .. comments please :)

Cant Afford a God

Life has been so full of surprises that i dont know if one such thing actually exists. Have you ever not met with an accident that u shout "Oh God Save me". Have you. Do u believe in God, I used to when i was rich. People remember him in times of distress , and i tend to forget him at times when i need him the most. For he is God , he must be knowing i am forgetting him. He must do something for come back in my life, must he play a miracle , should be join a broken heart or try to join all pieces of shattered heart that has just been crushed with a simple NO.
I am sometimes into believeing that God is nothing but an illusion , an illusion of a few happy who want to credit all they have to someone other than themselves. I am on other sides who are existing ( even if i can term it that way). He was bountiful of letting me meet her , and then in midst of haze , she just faded away. no no , not she , i , me .. I faded off in her memories , and my sight still glaze over the cubicle, on the roads , in the bus, in bike in search to find some faith. I have a great luck line , and a bigger fortune . I will be very rich , but money cant buy you love. I consider myself very poor when i look all i have lost , and the pains incurred. Few times when friends try to be God , and those when they end up devil.
Long time i have been to temple , long time i bowed my head , long times i touched someone's feet , long time i was blessed with an elderly hand... long time i lived , long time i thought about the almighty.
Is it back in me , the power to defy , power to negate his existence. I have nearly lost each and everything i said Mine , he has proved me that they never were. is my illusion that he is illusion is illusion or i am still disillusioned. I am still defying him , and let me challenge him to take all he can now , when i am in a position of nothing to lose , and anything more than that will surely dent his image.
Do u believe in him , i can but for time being i may not. for i have lost so many things to him , that i can't afford a God