The world I lived is lost in memories . And the memories is now changed to The Lost World ... the world that is lost for the world but the one i Still read and love and read on ...
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Ear Phones Stolen
There was a time I was in Pune,
And saw those Bose earphones to tune,
Listened and fell in love to quality so pure,
Wanted to own those expensive set for sure.
The cost too high to afford ,
And house advance broke my music mode ,
Took a cheaper set to music road ,
With vow to get the high end ones music node.
And came Diwali pleasant to speak ,
Wrapped in came a gift from brother of mine ,
A san Disk high end earphone set so fine ,
And born in me was music freak .
Went here and there , and everywhere ,
To whomsoever it may concern my dream is here ,
Clarity so fine, pleasant and surprise to share ,
I finally did a dare .
Wanna do some e-learning and brought to place,
My cubicle the earphone signed loved brother so grace,
As pure as white as sound quality was a shiny glaze ,
Missing it goes in morning today
Called the security and reports the theft,
The personnel tries to tell none dared to touch even left ,
Insistence let the complaint filed and me in sorrow sight,
My dream is stolen and so is the gift.
The next hour was pain though ,
And new one would cost a fortune through ,
Saw ones resembling mine in a desk so new ,
It will take courage to ask about my ear phones she knew.
With love for the gift ,
And the courage renewed ,
I went and found its mine so fine ,
And goes down in drain the respect till date.
I got the ear-phones back and was sad still ,
May be I should have not found them ,
For The respect in fellow colleagues would there be still,
And would have reverted to cheaper still.
There are many a earphones to be laid hands on ,
And taken to home and sold for ten bucks possibly on ,
But each carries a tag more than a few hundreds ,
Few sentiments , few emotions and few memories to bid on
Monday, December 8, 2008
Soumya
An angelic face and smile so sweet ,
Mature brain and sight to keep ,
Friend of friends in night so deep,
She along only happiness you reap.
Tall as a model would be ,
Features even Miss India envy ,
Leading someone in someway ,
Logical reasoning one would say.
Known her for a few months now,
And seems she was in all summers so hot ,
And also a shield when the winters did snow,
She is all of above without a doubt.
The dove was pure in purest form ,
Beauty apart , she has brains to add so strong,
With her things are corrected which went wrong,
For she picks up only problem as would a tong.
A friend shoulder in times so bad ,
True friend even in mood so sad ,
Wished since my life a friend I had,
Wish granted was all the God ever said.
You can change with times as times would ,
But change not the 82 to life as it should,
Best is with what you have today ,
And (touchwood) remain it be like that till end of times support could .
( PS: This is not a generalized poem but for someone who is not just someone J )
Friday, November 14, 2008
Little Angel ....
Bestest Person ....
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Life maintained @ high speeds
Thursday, October 9, 2008
The Charisma neva dies ...
Rise with rising star , and you will not see the daylight. There was never a time when I was in such a wonderful company , rather always was. Way back in school , me , Pruthi and Mitin had lots of fun. We graduated to Anand , Rhythm and me. Then there was a phase when I had good times with Sumit Juneja and Amit, roaming at 1 AM on streets of Calcutta. Mysore saw me ,Anand and Sid. Then Ashish, Dipankar and me. Come Bangalore , me , Abhishek and Prashanth. Move in Vipul , Sameer and me. Then came Fateh , Sameer Mohan and me. Each of these trilogies have special mention and experiences to share , cherish and remember for life. But as entire group left Bangalore , I was stranded all alone in 1 BHK. But who dare stop the talent destined to meet. There are a thousand stars , but its lodestar that shines the brightest. In this galaxy of friends , and constellations of so many pairs , I am currently in a solar system named “ Chamatkari Ladke” , self-proclaimed name for the most wonderful group to rock my life. Now was it me who re-defined the way they lived or other way round can be debated forever. Here I am starting to pen down the most beautiful phase of my life with these two guys, which will go beyond emotions. The reflections of a psycho writer should not be mistaken for any fiction writing, though I may not be able to gurantee it with any proof.
So the first time we start, I entered the house with a with no more hope than to change the situation, when I was told by Anuj about Ajit’s interests and I thought it would be good. The first expression of Himanshu on meeting me was same as one he has everyday morning for next 7 months. I have come to a house where possibly i will find the people suiting me. and i had known , even if they are not , possibly I would melt and cast in the castings. Anuj's talk about the nature of guy Ajit is, told me well as how to get his friendship. Himanshu was a harder nut but as destiny cant keep poles apart , and 1 + 1 = 2 = 11 of June , we had to be in the best of the worlds. There was a common friend , which migrated to a few more. Initally it started with one , and then we didnt have common friends , we were the world. We dont give the world a damn , and are there for each other in possible and sometimes impossible limits a friendship can ask you to stand. The friendship i share with these guys is just too awsome. Each time i have new friends , i learn things, i pretend to be the weakest. For many in the past who would know what an attitude i carried to this day when i try to be humble , not because it suits me , because i have learnt that friendship is not a big thing, its not a 20 storey building having lavish compartments built in a span of 6 months , but its collection of those small contributions that make a single storey hut a home. Friendship does come with a big price tag , as was motto of first school i attended ... Service before self , change it to friendship before self. My motto in life is different , and this is about me.
This article is something i write for myself , for my friends and anyone who is bored , should not continue. This is now where i am pouring it out . Last week we went out to Palace Grounds and was a pleasant experience. But and himanshu did all that was needed to secure all other friends. But at end of day , i mean night , when we sat and started to talk , it was just another night with mockeries. Tired as we are , we want to talk more. There are many things we have in common , there are many experiences we share. There is one thing which i am gonna take out of this circle of friends, there is something i learn silently. I see fights , i dont want to , but i know how to avoid them. There can be multiple claims of lost faith and friendship. I have been held responsible once for breaking the faith ( not my fault , and taken only for friendship). Well leaving those things behind , and many things to follow, i would just say. I will try to keep all my friendship safe and secure. I really dont know about the future plans , as to how long i will be here. Till Nov , Dec or next birthday. But one thing i know , it might be a just bit more hard to leave these guys. So was with Sameer and Fateh , Andy and Rhythm. But life moves on , and till the time you just move on , and leave the memories to stray in lanes of amnesia , its fine. Else it might jsut be difficult. And getting all my experience , all of a quater of century , i can gurantee one thing , we three gonna rock a long long way. Possibly living the golden period of our life together. I am still hopeful that we might be together for a long time , before any one of us says audieu. And i know it must be for me to say that , because i have been tried and tested by times to hurt myself, to suffer the pain that helps me becoming a better indiviual. If tomorrow i come up with a parting post , trust me , it will be hard. And i might take a time of eternity to pen down the time i spent with these guys, the mysore CCD , the friendship day , sukhi show , to late night maggies and gap-shap.
And i can only say ... The Charisma Continues ....
Monday, September 22, 2008
Nandi hills -- Experience to Cherish
Occassion : Shruti to Bangalore Visit
Potential Candidates for Trip : Himanshu , Deepak , Ajit , Soumya and Shruti.
Primary Target: Nandi Hills
Secondary Target : Sunrise on Nandi
The bike on which i covered those 68 Kms , this is just 2 Kms to Nandi Hills. The light in the area was low to drive at higher speeds. Hands were nearly a part of handle when we decided to stop for the first time.
How far is pretty far. A Mile long pic , taken from a mile

The Rising Sun , this rising sun was visible for a while before it set down and let us all in arms of majestic Nandi Hills ....

The pic in the blue . Below is the pic taken without any special effect , and is not editted. While just setting the camera , the surroundings changed to blueish , and i just clicked it. Possibly what nature had it in for us .... a divine blue

For the close-up pic to all those who think i never use a razor :) Noe dont complain of comb please

Since you have had patience enough to reach till this section the below pic should be of insignicant interst to you.

Heights : you are still wondering Why ??? Himanshu is missing guys ...
Why ... in next post sometimes :)
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Friendship Week
Lets look at the pic below ... lush mountains , vast fields and road of the city. This is Bangalore , believe me. And we are in heavens , the outskirts , and i still feel the tourism in the city is still underexplored but I would like it to be this way for a long time. This is me and Ajit at the dead end of this marvellous road, which is neither Nice Road , nor Outer Ring Road or Expressway or Superway . This is possibly some hidden place for bike drag race since the road just has tributaries to it , and it itself does not has a source or destination. An awsome place, but am sure i wont be able to find it again without the other two.

As we came to halt and decided to take a break and few pics of this beautiful place , we skidded through a muddy path , right deep into tunnels and most dangerous place to bike on. We reached the bottom of the place now , and still no concrete road. Well this went ...( will continue later )

Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Mysore Cafe Coffee Day - Part 1
Its a month later i am posting this. And i have wanted to do this for so long now. The blog entry describes the first weekend of August celebrated in a special way. The weekend is also known as Friendship Day. Even though I did not got a call from a few I had expected the most, the fun and space I shared with the other two guys will not be any less. So It was 1st Aug2008 , and we decided to go to Mysore.
Time: 1130 PM
Meeting Agenda : What to do on Weekend !!!
Meeting Attended By: Himanshu , Ajit and Deepak
Meeting Place: Gtalk and Mobile
Decided : Travel to Mysore Next morning, will ask few girls to move with us.
So as decided , a few girls were called at 12:30 AM and requested them to come to Mysore, next day at 4:00 AM. This was what was expected to be more of unrealistic situation , and we were suitably awarded with curses , as the call to many went upto 1 AM. I specified , if there are no girls, i dont care and we are gonna have the fun.
Forgot to mention , Ajit and Himanshu were in office and me in home. And i went to sleep at 1AM.
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Time : 3:30 AM
Day: Aug 2 , 2008.
The knock on the door , and Himanshu was unable to find the keys. Today only he was to forget the keys. He came in and informed me if the plan to go to Mysore is still ON. I was in half sleep, and yes Yes. And he asked me to get ready to leave. I was under impression that we will leave at 6 AM. This was not going to happen. I humbly , like a kid of four fought that I should be allowed to sleep for some time ,to which he refused.
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Time : 3:40 AM
Ajit's call came , he will be home by 4:10 AM. and the wish was granted. I still cherish those 20 min of sleep. And i was waken by another shout from another one. And by 430 AM , without a plan , without girls even , these guys have decided to hit the road.
Time : 430 AM
Meeting Agenda: Himanshu does not have a Helmet
So Himanshu has a bike but no helmet , so what to do now. We decided that he will carry on with Ajit and i will be drive alone. Anyhow I dont like guys sitting on my bike either.
Also was decided we will go to Cafe Codee Day ( CCD) on Bangalore Mysore Highway.
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Time : 500 AM
Now we are zig zagging the city roads. The virtually jam packed roads of BTM and Jaynagar were astonishingly empty. One would stop for a moment to wonder that this place can be real heaven , if the traffic is managed. The roads seem to be prefect till the time we crossed Jaynagar Petrol bunk, only to realise that the dream of perfect city was short lived. In the middle of a crossing , an entire place was dug and we took an alternate route. Another alternate followed, and this went on till the time we were actually convinced we are going to explore new territories. We ended up in Banshankari and then realised Ajit's bike is low on gasoline. Search for the bunk started as SOS. Finally we went on same known unknown path to reach to destination. One cut and one direction , to the north. Climbing steep ascents , and descending broken roads in the arms of a beautiful city. Yes , if you think Bangalore is all about traffic jams , IT companies and tall building , upcoming masterpieces and talent in India , other than a city with no nightlife and virtually non existent scenic beauty. You are mistaken my friend. The outskirts of city will shower hills on either side. The morning breeze rinses the soul as no one does. The crystal clear sky , and the whole city to look out for , this was the place. All of us parked the bikes on site (not to be read onsite ) took a few pics and moved on. The target of Mysore CCD was lost in vast free lands, large farms and small small houses. Not soon we passed Mysore - Bangalore Road , and decided to find an alternate path.

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Monday, August 11, 2008
Delhi at its pace best ...
Monday, August 4, 2008
Chowki dhani, Pune
First Sunday of eighth month this year (3-Aug-2008) I was in Rajasthan. Not exactly physically but yes the ambience and each atom of sand there made me believe I was in the largest state of India. For starters, Rajasthan is the biggest state in India, and this ethnical resort adds another acre to the state. From entrance to the starters ,from wall hangings to the way we sat having our food was all Rajasthani. This was an experience of a life time. If one was to be blindfolded and brought to this place, he would not recognize this place as being on outskirts of Pune. So what a wonderful way to share the space with my friends on this such a wonderful occasion.
It took me some half an hour to appreciate the beauty of the place and let it sink it. this is desert king , this is pink city and this is hub of folk dance. To try a hand at clay mudding , to ultimate folk dancing to bumpy camel ride, everything around made my pulse increasing. The first thing I went ahead and did was to go to the walls, which had all the hand made and crafty drawings signifying the art in the desert state. The texture of the color, and the mild fragnance blended well with the theme. And in between , i saw this beautiful painting and possibly lost in the beauty of the lady holding the earthenpot. She was beautiful, and innocence at its best. Possibly the artist drew his heart out on the wall , which had lightings also in traditional manner.
This phase was followed by a very entralling clay modelling session. The wet clay was as soft as the real desert soil , and one might be tempted to continue to keep it pressing whole day. the pot making process was not that difficult but the shapes required regular practice. I myself made a small pot , and all my friends appreciated my effort. The smell of clay was same as that left behind when first drops of rain fell on sand. This was probably the softest clay i laid my hand on, and am very happy what came out was a perfect small pot.
Camel riding was as bumpy as expected. The hump was good , probably no water scarcity in Pune, and the healthy camel took us a trip around the place. Like a Rajput going to fight Mughals was the feeling we were having. Our request to make camel run a few steps was granted well and we think only thing missing was a big sword and a turban on the head. Possibly the feeling sitting on the top of world was so great, no doubt Rajputs used to challange anyone in the battle-field and came out victorious.
What is Rajasthan without the folk, and the music and dance . Wow ... the perfect dancers with multiple earthen pots swaying to the beats of the traditional folk with energies bright enough to charge the dead batteries got the things rolling. With the dresses matched to occassions , and sitting down to enjoy the dance for half an hour. I was again lost in the magestic dance steps, the smile on face of dancer and above all with perfection her each sway was to the beat of the music. It was hard for me to avoid the music and we all started dancing. Seeing the enthusiasm in our group , we were called to dance on the stage. We knew we were no where to professional dancer but the energies were no less. Our group danced step to step and rocked the stage. Even if ours was not Rajasthani folk , we all managed a good show with synchronised dance moments and perfect co-ordination. All of Rajasthan for those brief two moments stood holding the breath for the angels from heaven dancing into the hearts of people. As the music stopped , we bowed. There was a big silence , like of the centuries. Nothing moves , even the air seemes to have paused for a moment to peep in what just happened. There was a fluctuation in the electricity and what followed was loud crisping clapping from all the places, and it seemed to go till eternity. All trees, buildings and even the dancer who had just rocked the stage came over, shook a hand and praised for the dance we had. She claimed it was best performance from anyone till date. The manager came up and gave us all a free entry coupon next time , and half of expenses paid by resort.
The gem of the evening was still to come, the dinner. The seating was just like it happens in movies. Seating on ground with a small table and finger licking food. The food was as spicy as expected. First time i cried with fire in my tongue. But even with reddening of face, and sweat dripping down my face, the taste was unbeatable. This was probably the best spicy food i had in recent times. The sweet dish was real sweet , and most cherished.
I came out of the pink city back in fast lanes of Pune , to come to office next day. Whatever be the case, the Chowki dhani just made my day , and i re-lived my life once more. a memory to cherish life long and experience to share through the close friends.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Bangalore Serial Bombs
Well , most concerns were like the bus service , whether some more bombs are going to rock the city or is it all . How will the traffic be like. Well , will there be any traffic.
Well , lets come to my seat , getting calls from friends in US of A to those in UK. First time my cellfone was tested to limits. Bangalore network was jammed but Tata Indicom was working. Wow!!! I got calls from nearly all people who cared.
Next , in internet. Madivala had 2 bombs to the credit, and i stay at a place which is barely a KM from the place.
Concerns : This is not a bomb or people injured that i am worried, what i fear are communal riots breaking. The bombs are serialised way to attack the prospering IT industry. but the city which has faced communal riots in last couple of years it has been a concern now.
Now its 530 PM and i am going out now. To my home, let us see how is condition. For me , i will be looking out for site where there was a bomb blast on Hosur road. And as someone has mentioned not much traffic on Hosur road, and ideally should not be there.
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Reached Home: what a journey. Raining heavily , drenched jackets and slippery roads. But was there was a blast. Was there something that was threatening. Traffic was less , you must be joking. I have not seen so much traffic in rain. Bikers were on road , fearing to make a stop. The bombs were placed in the sand it seemed. Well , i reached home in rain. Nothing unusual. Not a hint something was not correct. No sign of bomb at any instance across Hosur Road.
For me the bomb blast that rocked the entire nation were not able to rock the Bindass City Of Bangalore ....
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namma bangalooru ..... i am loving it :)
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Monday, June 30, 2008
The Changing Priorites ...
Now that happened sometime back when i was moving through a good phase in my life , when i found this girl who had found a whole new world in her new boyfriend, and there would be no reason for her to showcase it. For years of friendship goes meaningless , and her boyfriend is all so better. He is possibly on site and she is suddenly just too busy now. for a 10 min talk she would tell it whole day , genuinely not intersted. I understand that friends lose importance over time , when new friends come in such a fashion that old one lose importance , remember the new ones will also be old , and so will you be also be one ...
Life brings a new perspective when one finds a new found love , i remember my first computer , my first mobile , my first PDA , and hours i spent on each of them , like they never will be over. And forget the TV , Radio and even neglect the people around us ,same thing happens .
there has been almost so many incidents ... so almost , few got onsite , some got onsite calls (referred to as bf calling ) , others suddenly started to think office work is more imp that simple Hi in the morning .
The morning greetings are replaced by blank messages , the sms stopped and calls non existent. And the reason is simple , you were a need , possibly a make shift friend till one got permanent one , and the thing that stings most is the second to someone who came in late. And suddenly they would identify to have met in class 6th , gimme a break. 10 days ago u met the guy on net , joined 5 days ago in CCD , and tell today u had a crush on guy when u were in class VIII . You can fool me , and for a fool i am , i will always be , but no use fooling yourself.
Now i like one girl , and i go to limits to help her, but she will be rude to me, as if i cant exist without her. Possibly i wont be able to , but there are 2 possible reasons , either she does not know the fact (she will be the most dumbest person on the earth , who wont understand the pain one incurrs to prepare food for you with a broken left arm ) or she takes me for granted. She thinks i am the worst fool on the earth , and she can use me till the time she wants. Now if the latter thing happen to be true ( God forbid ) , what should one do. Make life hell for her , ping her , call her or sms her. No , that will be bad . Stop talking to her , no way , tomorrow she will need help , then where she will go , when she needs to get something downloaded , or pay up a bill or just like that . she will ask all the help for you, but when u selflessly try to care would stand up as the most independent girl on this earth. one thing over this period is you make me sick. I Sometimes repent to have done friendship with you , and worse i still like you.
Now there is second class , she i thought was one of true friends , but i am second to her new toy , her new boyfriend. continents apart she will talk to hi, me also , but i am second.
Ditto with another best friend , she promised to call me when she wud get a job , 2 years and am still waiting for the same.
Its sad to be on the spree of losing friends, and with this pace very soon , there wont be anyone in my list.
If you are reading this still , there is a very small request from this person down here, please dont make me feel as if i am stigma to society , dont make me feel as of no importance as i font have a gf , and u do have a bf. When i did firendship i wanted friends .
If you still count me as an option in your list , i can keep on accumulating the pain till the bucket is filled to brim. Dont know what will happen when it will overflow.
I am already done still think can manage losing last 2 girls alive in my friends list . One thing is for sure , i lost a friend today , hope the next post never comes ....
Thursday, June 19, 2008
We Talk of Values ...
There are few companies in this world who boasts as anchor , the discoverer and above all the best in the business. And then it talks of values , talks of greenery and the traffic management , not only across the company but across the city limits. These types of companies are more like a pot full of poison packed in attractive cover and sweets on the top. The pot is shiny to look from far , but the ground realities are as different as white from back. I travel to office by bike daily , and the company bus would not only clog the road, but also make it impossible for others to pass. Other than the road space that is taken over the bus-mafia every periodic hour Monday through Friday , it is the security segment that is at a loss. There is no way a person can drive carefree on the roads. The construction at a continuous stretch would have roads blocked at many points , but then the bullies on road , like a carefree elephant would move sideways , without indicating or slowing down. The bully would enter the company compound as the most innocent ones in the world , and then go stain free. The bus of a multinational. What is most frustrating is the city could have been a much better place without them, or having them disciplined. Try parsing the same area at same time on weekends , and the torturous hour long stretch to complete a distance of 8 Km on weekdays is covered up in astonishing 20 min. Then also would come out and claim to be one handling the transport well. There are two types of people , one who are in the bus with I-Pods stuffed in ears , eyes closed , or gossiping the day out back to the home , who once in a while would be jolted by bus moving over divider ,curse the driver and continue with chat or music as before. There is this other segment of people on road , the bikers , the car-drivers and other small vehicle drivers. Each time a small jolt is felt inside the bus , is accompanied by severe braking sound , a heavy jolt in passengers of cars and pillion riders crashing on in the bikers . And still when the voices are raised to correct the defect , they would not. The complaints won’t be allowed to discuss in a public forum ,and asked to point the complaint to a same department. A way to complain is to protest , awareness has to be first step for any change. But these rights are virtually nonexistent.
Then I know of a company with strict dress codes , when I saw them the first time moving to the company in the morning, they looked good. Tie up the necks, full sleeve nicely pressed Shirts , and then with them this girl with a sleeveless crumpled T-shirt and jeans. I was all in good for the company having such a crowd , should come first in fancy dress ,but for that girl who was not dressed properly. One month later , I got to know from one of the friends working in the same company, that if the guys don’t follow the uniform they are fined for it. At first it seemed to me that the person is joking , but he was not. He was serious , and one was forced to laugh. Then I remember the girl in jeans was not for tainting the image of company but to laugh and mock at the properly dressed boys , and then the company comes out and says no gender bias. I think of “Husbands suffering in hands of girls “ concept. The company is definitely not giving any advantage to boys for being male but girls are encouraged to dress in tempting dresses. Jeans , skirts and likes of home wear ,may be for attracting a larger consumer base. Then there is a period in first quarter when the employees are not wearing ties , due to summer heat. This is reflected directly in sensex as the company profits drip. The people work with highest efficiency on Mondays and Tuesdays when the tie is up the neck. Obviously the girls are not in production as they don’t wear ties and the efficiency is so less. Such a big company runs on tie. Grow up , don’t go and look in the world , you are genuinely not eligible , but atleast look at surroundings. Times have changed and so must you ,else times wont forgive you. If one is so persistent on having employees wear that particular tie , come out with uniform and let all wear same stuff. One does believe in equality of gender. But I still feel sorry for boys of that company shelling out money in case they wear half sleeve shirt on Monday, and see a Sleeveless girl pass as they write in fine.
What is an infection , it is something undesirable in a healthy environment. How does one define legitimate? Is it one’s perception of a subject or should it invite a wider audience. There is no place for rigid policies , and one need to be very flexible with changing times. Its really absurd to keep on shouting , cribbing and crying about sorry state of the place when one is not ready to improve oneself.
So where does one start , within itself. The general outcry of people asking for a change will go unnoticed for a small time, then oppression will result in agitation , and it may even lead to downfall of the monster. Most of the bullies go down silently. For in 25 years of my existence , I have known there are different summits to climb and one does not sit on zenith for long. Numero Uno position is not government post that one may continue till end of life , and when one does talk of values , one should follow it.
Values are not the currency notes which go down as the rupee becomes stronger , neither are the one that in inherited in hundreds of world class building built, but is defined by people in those. By the top management going in iteration with the lower order people , and communicating clear guidelines . defining process , declaring punishment and above all , implementing it across all the sections. A dress code violation attracts a financial penalty for males while its all scot free for girls. The decency levels , the discipline spread are small issues because we are now talking of Values. And then this intellect which is already possibly quarter century old. Rather than being a open mind and moving with the world , a stubborn tumor and falsified feeling of being the best and most appreciated won’t let it move further. The employee satisfaction level along with the non-existent morals are going down. There are big changes in the way company works, the jobs and bands are being restructured , but there is a bigger need on hand than these. Change the logo of the company if company is no longer in a position to follow it , find the people responsible. It’s a matter of A FEW which give it all a bad name. But a smelly fish spoils all the pond , and is the current state now. How does one recover the lost pond. Its high time something is done just too fast to bring all the things back to normalcy before its too late.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Void after she left
This was another last time we met , i called her next day and next day till she finally picked the call, and told her i want to meet her once more. She obliged , and i was indeed the most happy soul on earth , maybe that would not be longed live , but the aroma of her presence evaporates all of any thoughts. The times i have spent with her have been the best of life. Its generally said that a person should not change for the one he likes, but i am sorry. Each of things she liked , i started loving. I started feeling there is a drastic change needed in my life, and this would not have been possible had she not come into my life. I started to look , find the errors in me , and rectify them for that is not the parameter for someone liking me or not ,but i started to understand that personality is one stuff one needs to build. So where does we start , the mirror . A few extra pounds , delete it. Set a target , 2nd of Sixth month , when i would surprise her. I worked hard , harder than one thinks. A strict regular diet topped with hours of gym and no chocs and ice cream for 3 months. Here i think i grew better, but again was mistaken. She refused to say i am fine. What does that do , a determination to lose another dozen kgs. Its not easy but maybe i will do anything for her .
There was a time i used to talk to a many girls , now i dont. All know her , and i want to tell her that for world she is someone , but for me , she is the world. I can go to limits just to be with her.Cauz she is one person who with whom i think i can be happpy. Her simplicity is so awsome , i have gone limits for her. Workouts . improving English and control diet. Nothing seemed to be impossible when she was in mind, one can think how wud she effect me if she comes in my life.
Last night in bangalore and she was with me , drinking coconut water ( mayb if she remembers it as nariiyal paani) , and that was in liue of coffee we were to have. And again , that awsome evening walk to follow. I still think i can walk with her for lifetime , and why only me , any person . Her genuine smile , her milky complexion (touchwood) and her touching words with her presence act as a tonic to live the life in a better way.
The day she was with me , i was looking at the time , stop. Please the clock , dont tick for some time now. I dont know when i will meet her next , just a small request, God , Lets call it a day and let her spend some more time with her, but time stops for nothing. And it went, and next day she also flew to Delhi.
The void expected on her departure was bigger than the distance from her place to BIAL. When i cross 11th Main , no more i look for the pink house , no more i am looking in the Ladoos if i see her or the morning shop where she has her tea/ Was the first time i passed BTM i did not want to pass through that SBI ATM....
i just want to tell her once , i will change for her , change for the best, would be an umbrella in the rain , a shade till the sun fade , and best of friend till the life ends. I dont know if i could ever be as good as you are, but i can promise that i will do the best of my capabilities to be the best for ya , and yes i still remember the song u like the most -- sweet like the sugar coated candyman ,...
All things planned for you on my birthday will miss you for sure. Even though you are the most beautiful angel the God ever made, even though you got the smile a few have , a voice envied by all , even though God gave you all decorations he had in his kitty, even though he had gifted you the best of the best in each and every catogary, and me on the other side, but dont we know opposites attract. Still i just want to tell you that i cherish your company the most ....