It was here , it still is ...

All of a sudden it comes to you, right in front of your eyes. It always was there. It always will be. Try looking beyond horizons or towards the farthest greener grounds. Try the most majestic thoughts you got. Try making the pocket green , try making the world green. Try to change it , try it a now. Did you try ? Was it a success . Try it a bit more , push it an inch deeper . It works.  that one extra step , that one final effort , that one last time always work. It always was there. All of a sudden it might come to your realization, but it was never away.

Soch raha hoon

Soch raha hoon ki sochun ya nahi, ya soch ke bhi unsuna ker doon. kuch darakhte hai jin per teheniya nahi hai , per patte fir bhi aa hi jaate hai. kabhi un shakhaun ki ahemiyat khud khatre mein padne si lagti hai ... per kahan huwa hai guzara kisi ka paani ke bina . kuch pi lete hai kuch aur hi payy , per jo ehsaas anant vishaal samander ko dekhne se aata hai, woh kahan kab ek nadi bujha saki hai pyaas.
mein bakhuda nahi, bewafa nahi, beinteha aur samander ki tarah beshumar bhi nahi , per kahin to bekhudi ne khud beizzat kiya mujhe. Sapne zyada nahi hai pass mere , per kab muthi bhar khwahisho ko aasman mila hai . jail ki chaar deewao mein bhi udte honge sapne , per kahan rooh ko jism se azaadi milli hai. sadhu sant kehte hai  ki jeevan kaal ke baad aatma alag ho jaati hai is nashwar shaheer se, to kya chali jaati hai soch bhi uske saath. mujhe nhai lagta ki itni bewafa hoti hai aatma , ki zindagi bhar rahi jiske saath usse chod de. fitrat aatma ki nahi hai imaan si. soch raha hoon ki pooch loon apni aatma se ki kya mere sath hi rahegi hamesha. shaadi hoti hai do roohon ka milan , per kya mere saath hi rahegi. kabhi to kahin aisa lagey ki chalega mere saath, her kadam her safar her manzil per. bharosa mujhe hai khud per , aur us per jo rooh ka hai saathi, kya aisa ker de ki ek hi ker de rooh, per fir jism ki bewafayi dimaag ki upaj hai.
Soch raha hoon ki sochun ya nahi, ya soch ke bhi unsuna ker doon ki kya hai manzil is jeevan ki, ki raah alag hai raaste se. samajhata rehta hoon is dil ko , per kab dhaan ke khet mein aam nikale hai. kahin se fir bhi kuch to ajeeb sa hote rehna hi sabse badi samasya bhi hai aur hal bhi. kahin paani ki boondein man ko tript ker deti hai , to kabhi mitti ki khusboo aatma ko , fir bhi aaj darte hai baarish ein bheegne se aur mitti mein khelne se . kahin to kabhi to kuch aisa bhi ker de ki jisse na khushi mile and sukoon. kuch kaam aise bhi ho jo kerne hai sirf kerne ke liye, kyunki sochna bhi zaroori nahi, fir bhi soch h raha hoon mein .

Zindagi ...

zinda rehna zindagi nahi , zinda chalti roohein zindagi nahi ... saansein to chalti hi rehti hai , saanso ke tham jaane se zindagi kam nahi ... Zindagi woh ek lamha hai jisse jeene ke liye hum apni poori zindagi laga dete hai ,woh ek khoobsoorti hai jo sau saal ki umar ko bus us ek pal mein jad deti hai jab hum muskura dete hai. ek aisa ehsaas jo ho ke bhi nahi hota, aur jo na ho ke bhi kabhi saath nahi chodta. ek doosre ka saath dene ka ehsaas, kisi ke sapno mein roz aane ka ehsaas , kisi ki zindagi ko sapno se bhi haseen ker dene ki soch ka naam hai zindagi.
Zindagi us ek se na rukti hai na chalti hai, per jiske liye kabhi tum khud kahin ruk gaye to dosto woh hai zindagi. Apne aane jaane se shayad hi kabhi kisi ko farak pada ho, per jis din yeh jaan jao ki kaun dekhta hai raah tumhari her din subah, us ek nazar per sab nazreen ker dena hi zindagi hai. Aasan hai bahut ki kuch na ker ke, jaise ho waise hi reh ker waise hi chalte firte kaat lo apne din mahine, per fir us zindagi mein aur maut mein kya anter hai. Ek taboot ke ander hai aur doosra bahar. Khud ke liye jeena zindagi ka saaransh hai, per jis din apni zindagi ka woh sabse haseen pal kisi aur ko de do to ho jayega woh her ek pal se alag. ek aisa ehsaas jisse jee ker tum bhi keh sakoge ki haan, zinda bhi hoon aur jee bhi hai meine zindagi.

Jawab ...

aaj unhone jab subah savere yaad kiya , to bhej diya humne ek gulaab unko. Gulaab paa ke phool ki uttejna muskurat mein badalti huwi mere se poochti hai , ki kaise bhej diya aaj ek gulab unko,, jabki saalo se ek patta tak nahi bheja. ek bheeni si muskaam ke saath humne bhi keh diya , ki waise to phoolon ko phool bheje nahi jaate, ki dono mein se kisi bhi jaati huwi muskurat dekh nahi sakte, per aaj man kiya to bhej diya. Jawab sun ke muskurati si bholi boli apne se ki jawab to pasand aaya , aur muskurati si rahi. kya jaanti thi woh pagli ki jawab jab khud jawab maange to kabhi kabhi sawalo ke pass jaana padta hai , waise to mein khud hi talaash leta hoon apni manzil per aaj sawaal se poochne ka man tha , to pooch liya.
jawab her baat ka ussi jawab mein ho , ya sawaal se bhi mil jaaye zaroori nahi. Aksar jawab hota hi nahi, bus ek talaash hai , jiska koi ant nahi. sawaal bhi apni raah se bhatka huwa woh musafir hai jisse her padhav per ek manzil ka ehsaas hota hai , per jaana hoga usse fir nayi bhoj per. jawaab hai nahi kahin kisi ke pass. her cheez shunya per aake smaapt ho jaaye aisa zaroori nahi , humne cheezo ko apne charam per bhi simate huwe dekha hai. ambar jo saalo se jawab dhoodh raha hai dharti se , kya mila kuch usse. ek kshitij per milne ki khwahish uski sadiyo purani , ek dharti ka man jo usse jawab hi nahi deta. surya ke praskash mein sawaal to ker leta hai amber per kya samader mein apni chavvi dekh ker uska man nahi kerta ki choo loon ek baar.
kuch baato ka jawaab nahi hota , kuch baatein hi jawab hoti hai. tum humse na poocho ki kaise hai hum , tumne jo soch liya poochne ke liye to jawab apne aap, aap ke pass aa gaya .