Cant Afford a God

Life has been so full of surprises that i dont know if one such thing actually exists. Have you ever not met with an accident that u shout "Oh God Save me". Have you. Do u believe in God, I used to when i was rich. People remember him in times of distress , and i tend to forget him at times when i need him the most. For he is God , he must be knowing i am forgetting him. He must do something for come back in my life, must he play a miracle , should be join a broken heart or try to join all pieces of shattered heart that has just been crushed with a simple NO.
I am sometimes into believeing that God is nothing but an illusion , an illusion of a few happy who want to credit all they have to someone other than themselves. I am on other sides who are existing ( even if i can term it that way). He was bountiful of letting me meet her , and then in midst of haze , she just faded away. no no , not she , i , me .. I faded off in her memories , and my sight still glaze over the cubicle, on the roads , in the bus, in bike in search to find some faith. I have a great luck line , and a bigger fortune . I will be very rich , but money cant buy you love. I consider myself very poor when i look all i have lost , and the pains incurred. Few times when friends try to be God , and those when they end up devil.
Long time i have been to temple , long time i bowed my head , long times i touched someone's feet , long time i was blessed with an elderly hand... long time i lived , long time i thought about the almighty.
Is it back in me , the power to defy , power to negate his existence. I have nearly lost each and everything i said Mine , he has proved me that they never were. is my illusion that he is illusion is illusion or i am still disillusioned. I am still defying him , and let me challenge him to take all he can now , when i am in a position of nothing to lose , and anything more than that will surely dent his image.
Do u believe in him , i can but for time being i may not. for i have lost so many things to him , that i can't afford a God

Like A King to King

Finally, my current project is over. Really bugged by all the people here , not from our proj but from the neighbouring ones. The XYZZ is one of the undoubtly the best project to work for, in case you are looking for a reason to resign from the company or think your life as problem free. The politics being played, the resources torn apart , the fallen warriors ... And Just After the clash of titans , what remains is nothing but a heap of dust , dusk ... insteaad of a new era , what awaits is another long night ... For when the friends are few, and dementors (soul suckers) all around , you still stand in there , hang in there ,as if God is going to prize you someDay , mayb today , mayb Tomorrow .. or cauz u had so many repents to make ... u stay here ... shittered , in a pathetic state , waiting for something to happen, something to justify the existence in this bangalore city where Life is scared to death atleast twice daily , on numerous occasion . Why is it , that i am still here in office, writing something so useless as me ... well , why is it my friends have seen me changing without me noticing it .. why is it i want to be all alone when am even surrounded by all of them .. why is it i am asking these question and to whom .. for i dont believe in God , then why ...Why do i believe that for all the pains i am undertaking , for all the bad times , i will be rewarded , wll it be same fate as those who built the Taj ... probably not , but denial is one thing i am always spektical. ..Why is it the color Black has started appealing more than the color of light, or i have taken up the books for the fear of nothing ...Am i ready to go into amnesia , or still a ray of light exists ...for i am still not completly broken, for i still have a heart , and for a semi-functional brain. I can still type and those who dont understand this all , is a matter of me failing at so many peoples . and so many people's expectations , and then why i am there to expect anything from anybody , when i know this world is there to be conquered all alone .. for this is the time , i have my boots up my neck , and bare -footed on glasss spilled floor , i walk .. .. silently for my prize ...its here ,,.. just here ... extend the hand and see who waiting .. the one you have had known for so long , so little , that it has come to you ...now to get to it ... and for it to make belive that u care ... is this more than what i aspire ..for next few decades , i dont know if i still write this line or exist ... but i know 1 thing ...I was there , and i Fought ... like a soldier to soldier , man to man ... like KING to KING ....

Infosys Mysore 25 years Celebrations

I was one of the lucky ones to have witnessed the Infosys Celebrations of 25 years both in Mysore and Bangalore. The celebrations started well with Mysore and a huge celebration of Infosys being listed in US stock index, and then followed by 25 years of celebrations. I as my personal experience I consider the event at Mysore a better celebration then at Bangalore, for the high profilic celebration was laden with the presence of most of my close friends then. The event was never in question and what I take back from that celebration is a host of new friends, a new spirit and a new zest to life. A new thinking, a new vision and a new dream to float a company and be as successful as Infosys Tech Ltd. The event was garnished with presence of Chief Minister Shri.. Kumaraswamy, Chairman of Infosys Shri. Narayana Murthy, President and CEO of Infosys Mr. Nandan Nilekani, Chief Operating Officer Infosys Mr. Gopalakrishnan, Shri. Montek Ahluwalia, Deputy Chairman - Planning Commission with P Chidambram ( former finance minister of India) . The event was on such a large scale that the stage set up for the even was too huge. At a location where SDB-4 circled the ground at one end and famous Mysore multiplex in vision at far end was a sight not easy to forget. We came to infosys at 3 PM , and believe me it was fortified like a city fearing Alaxander to attack the place. The entry for the employees was from the rear gate , and the parking at far end near GEC building ( will put a pic for all of them soon). Then we moved on to grounds where we were supposed to be seated. A first few seats were reserved for the media personnel, and behind them were we. I remembered the time when we went a bit early to see the Ravana burning during dusshera . I know bad comparison but was like that only.

Mr Chidambram said in his speech "Standing here it is difficult to believe that we are in India, that we are in not the capital city of a state, but in a city with a great history and an even greater future. This could be Silicon Valley in California. This could be the Rouen region in France, this could be Stuttgart, this could be any town in Australia, but we are proud that this is India. We are proud that the makers of this dream are here, with us, and let me begin by congratulating Shri. Narayana Murthy and those who founded Infosys 25 years ago."

These words from his mouth made me feel so proud , i turned around to see the the multiplex, and the magestic it stands

This was then followed by our own Narain Murthy's speech. his speech started as "It is a matter of great pride to see your child grow up, embrace a good value system, seek high aspirations, and achieve more than what you ever thought was possible. My young friends, Infosys is one such child; a child who has made all of us proud not only just by her achievements but as much by her humility, grace, value system and courtesy"

Then bonus was annouced and there was cheer all round the place , and then there was a DJ night, in which KK performed his heart out on a ravishing stage studded with world class DJ lights , and sound system to rock 6000 people present in the ground. There was dance mood all around , and trainees leaving tension of upcoming Exams and Compri's danced on the single tune played through the night. Bet , even stars and moon were swaying to the sound of the live songs sung by KK , which were so language independent. Songs ranged from hindi , punjabi to kannada and tamil. Think that was first time i appreciated the south indian music first time. And the trend continues till date.
We all danced and partied till we fell , exhausted like dying remote batteries who are not replaced but pressed hard for one last time, remaining enough to reach our bikes. God knows how we drove to homes with only cherished memories acting as single source of energy in this physically depleted body. for the star studded function which just annouced that a young man of 25 years is ready to take on the world , and his roar has been no less than that of a lion to tremble entire world.

We are Here , and We are Here to Stay ... :)

Wonder If they Too Miss Me ....

As i was in Mysore from a period of Oct 2005 to Aug 2006 , and then in Bangalore till Sept 2007 , i met so many friends , and so many memories which one can find throughout my blog. But this post is a question to myself, my lone self asking my soul that do my friends also miss me as i miss them. Have i been successful to create a small void in their life which will be missed for a long time. has this useless person found a place in any of the his friend's heart.
First thing that any of my friends, i think wud miss ( my housemates ) must be morning tea , or tea at any hour. And with one cup of tea would assemble all and talk the heart out.
My chatter - oh come on !!! there is not a caliber of any normal humna being who can blabber entire day without head or toe as me. Who i think wont let anyone die bored , but my comments. Have my constant chatter also left a void.
Have my useless comments brought a smile to your face anytime , and do they still compare a similar comment by someone. Do they not miss me while watching a movie, for fundoo commentary. And on top do they still use some of my PJ's and styles when am not around.
Then there are always a person who gets ultimate treatment , i dont know about my friends but my foes are sure , would never forget me. Had they been able to top the verbal insults thrown at them.
Last section of people: These are those people whom i have spent my last few months in Bangalore. For all the movies we saw together , for all the birthdays we celebrated , all parties we lived , all BDA we searched , all Hosur we ran lives out , all shortcuts we found , all intutions that failed , do you still call out "Deepak" sometime thinking Bloody hell, is he still there.

I am one of those disease who are difficult to be eradicated , and will cross paths more than often. My all tries to be normal , talk less have just resulted in people around me also talking more, for the color Black is like that. Takes all in its stride , just like my character.
Full of corruption , dirt , backstabbing and hell worth , if they are able to accept me.
My taunts on going to gym , ever-ready to go anywhere , and one thing which they should miss .My timings , atleast one thing that prevents my tainted image. And all things i promised i did , there was not a single leak, and did all possible to help all my friends, and those who were not in same way, selflessly.
Stop this virus before it spreads smile all over the world.