Soch raha hoon

Soch raha hoon ki sochun ya nahi, ya soch ke bhi unsuna ker doon. kuch darakhte hai jin per teheniya nahi hai , per patte fir bhi aa hi jaate hai. kabhi un shakhaun ki ahemiyat khud khatre mein padne si lagti hai ... per kahan huwa hai guzara kisi ka paani ke bina . kuch pi lete hai kuch aur hi payy , per jo ehsaas anant vishaal samander ko dekhne se aata hai, woh kahan kab ek nadi bujha saki hai pyaas.
mein bakhuda nahi, bewafa nahi, beinteha aur samander ki tarah beshumar bhi nahi , per kahin to bekhudi ne khud beizzat kiya mujhe. Sapne zyada nahi hai pass mere , per kab muthi bhar khwahisho ko aasman mila hai . jail ki chaar deewao mein bhi udte honge sapne , per kahan rooh ko jism se azaadi milli hai. sadhu sant kehte hai  ki jeevan kaal ke baad aatma alag ho jaati hai is nashwar shaheer se, to kya chali jaati hai soch bhi uske saath. mujhe nhai lagta ki itni bewafa hoti hai aatma , ki zindagi bhar rahi jiske saath usse chod de. fitrat aatma ki nahi hai imaan si. soch raha hoon ki pooch loon apni aatma se ki kya mere sath hi rahegi hamesha. shaadi hoti hai do roohon ka milan , per kya mere saath hi rahegi. kabhi to kahin aisa lagey ki chalega mere saath, her kadam her safar her manzil per. bharosa mujhe hai khud per , aur us per jo rooh ka hai saathi, kya aisa ker de ki ek hi ker de rooh, per fir jism ki bewafayi dimaag ki upaj hai.
Soch raha hoon ki sochun ya nahi, ya soch ke bhi unsuna ker doon ki kya hai manzil is jeevan ki, ki raah alag hai raaste se. samajhata rehta hoon is dil ko , per kab dhaan ke khet mein aam nikale hai. kahin se fir bhi kuch to ajeeb sa hote rehna hi sabse badi samasya bhi hai aur hal bhi. kahin paani ki boondein man ko tript ker deti hai , to kabhi mitti ki khusboo aatma ko , fir bhi aaj darte hai baarish ein bheegne se aur mitti mein khelne se . kahin to kabhi to kuch aisa bhi ker de ki jisse na khushi mile and sukoon. kuch kaam aise bhi ho jo kerne hai sirf kerne ke liye, kyunki sochna bhi zaroori nahi, fir bhi soch h raha hoon mein .