Monday, December 2, 2013

Itna bhi nahi hoon

mein itna bhi nahi hoon , ki ho ke bhi na hoon. kuch itna sa khwab hai ki jo bhi woh hi rahun. kahin kabhi kisi mod per kabhi kuch mila ya nahi , kabhi kuch paaya to nahi, fir bhi sab kuch kho doon itna nahi hoon.
Sahensheelta hai bahut mujh mein ki sab himalya ki god se aayi hai, bade toofano ko jhel ke chala jaata hoon , hazaro seene mein daba rakhe hai , kahin se koi bhi chot nahi pag paati mujhe kabhi , na badal paar ker paate hai na kholta jwalamukhi bhed paaya hai , per imaan per uthe ek bhi sawaal ko bardaasht ker loon, itna bhi nahi hoon.
Sabar bahut kiya hai meine is samander ki tarah , shankh, moti deep aansu sab khota hi raha, kabhi leher lag gayi kinare per, kabhi ek kona hi choot gaya , to kahin mere ander se hi koi bahar ki duniya ka ho chala, sabko sab kuch de doon per deke bhi roya nahi , itna nahi hoon mein. 
Sthir hoon dhara ki tarah , kya kuch nahi diya rehne walo ko. kabhi anaaj kabhi khaana kabhi rona to kabhi roti , per ghoom ke jab woh hi seene mein khanjar daal nikaalna chahte hai mere dene se kuch zyada, chup chaap apna sab de doon aur palatke vaar na karun , itna bhi nahi hoon mein.
faila hoon aakash ki tarah , dekhta hoon her us cheez ko jiski apeksha bhi nahi , kahin kabhi koi jeet raha hai manzar bade, to kahin hai haar ki maar , kahin hara ke aagey badh raha hai manush sabko, kahin jalate deep mein unnati hai, per jeet ki khushi mein dost jab doosre ki peet mein daalta hai maut, bina roye khoon ke aasu yeh dekh loon , itna bhi nahi hoon.


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    1. Thanks Sakina . i appreciate the comments you sent offline. I will try to format the blogs to look more readable

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